baby

2011-10-21T17:19:00.001+08:00

I'm gonna get myself back in action :)

2011-02-06T05:25:00.001+08:00

Hi, it's been a long time i ever update this blog.

& the purpose i'm updating now is that, i'm once again the abandon one:(

I'm all by myself the second time.

Sigh~

R' got caught right in front of my eyes.

That kind of fear in her eyes tells me a lot.

When she broke into tears & tells me how much she need me.

The feeling is unbearable, so sucks.

This time is a different story.

Not like how i'm determine to hold on like i used to.

There's so much we'd gone thru & eventually, we're alr on th rocks.

So, tell me wad should i do?

I cried, i did cried like nobody business in the public.

Hoping someone could come to me.

There's not even one i can turn to.

I can't denied my feelings fade so much.

But, my heart aches whenever i recalled th scene, the saddening part.

It's a torture for R', i'm sure.

She's so used having me by her, doing every single things together.

But now, all by herself.

I can't promise i'll wait as a girlf for her to be out.

But, i swear, i'll wait even as a friend.

7months ain't easy.

I prayed for a better life for her.

A fast & easy one.

Hope that she can get to school asap.

God, i don't ask for much.

I know it's YOU who wan R' back.

I don't blame you.

But i hope it's true that if you let her lose her freedom for now,

she can gain even better things in life.

The story shall continue 7months later...

2010-10-17T12:40:00.001+08:00

Superwomannn back in town (:

Hi, I'm finally back to update with a proper lappy this time & it actually brightens up my blog .

Yah, it seem so dead luh =.=

Currently rotting @ R's bed.

Waiting for her to be back with my lovely lunch (:

Awww~ I miss her so much.

Okay, I'm in a bad mood instead.

It's like killing me whole night.

Had a fight with my mum yesterday.

Kinda pissed off with th words she've said.

I mean, a mother would never look money as important that she can pulled me down or dragged her feelings on me, damn it.

But, i went out straight after th fight.

Sick & tired of that place, those ppl :(

I rather suffered alone out than to freaking see them.

Thankfully, R' never fails to bring me smile & love.

She turns my sorrows into my happiness.

She's my love (:

Okay, stop pondering over those fcuk-up stuffs.

Rewinding back to few days ago.

It was Jiajia's birthday (:

It was held @ Sun City.

Enjoyed much there. Laughs.

& intend to head over V4, but thanks ah, all of us can't get in.

Mostly was guys th ones who can't get in.

Okay, but i hope our birthday girl enjoyed herself (:

Then, meetup with Boy, together with R' for Movie.

Child's eye ; Rating ` 4/5 ***

Not that scary though.

Or maybe should i say, R' make me laughed instead. HAHAHA!

She was like shouting here & there. Omg ! So cute isn't?! My superman (:

A no ending show =.=

Nothing special, shall end my post here.

Stay tuned for more (:

Goodbye!

2010-10-08T12:26:00.000+08:00

I'm back after missing from my blog so long .
Nah, I bet readers miss me (: haas.
My blog somehow rotted & perhaps growing spiders webs =.=
I really wanted to keep it update oftenly but sad to say, I don't have a proper lappy to let me do so.
Only an iPhone :\ haas.

Okay, so far so good.
I'm jobless for now & working hard at home (:
I need a break but it's taking too much of my time .
Duh, I've been staying overnights out there with my cliques.
Spending time with R' & enjoying my happening nights @ Nana.
It's like almost th same old thing everyday =.=
But, I'm still grateful that I've got R' to keep me alive every single day.
She got all my needs ready, without a word of complain. I mean, how nice my boyf would be & yes, she's th one I know I wan(:
Now we're trying to understand each other more, trying to avoid conflicts & I'm sure we're doing it . Thanks god!

My lazy days & sort of break make me eventually gain weight =.= FML !
I've been sleeping, eating, out for party & eat again.
All I can say is, I gets hungry easily (: laughs.
I really really wanna stop eating that much but ya' guys know, temptations are really irresistible (:

Bff is down with fever & sick , which is now happening to most of my peeps.
Th weather now indeed sucks alot . Damn.
I'm sick too, ups & downs. Happy come, happy go.

I'm thankful still, to have Ray Shayez as my beloved boyf .
& Deping as my Bff (:
How nice it is, to have ppl who loves you by your side?
Th happiness in your life .

2010-09-12T00:00:00.000+08:00

I miss Bff :(

Okay, back to update!

So far, i got nothing much to update also.

Bad things aren't to be remembered & good things won't last too.

So, i'm actually used to it alr.

I don't wish to elaborate anymore.

All i can say is, im sick & tired of everything around me.

I'm not that strong afterall.

I hope Bff is here with me.

Talked on th phone with her today & she got some advice for me & i find it quite true.

Yeah, I should make my mind & follow my heart.

I wished she come back fast so that i wont suffer hard =.=

Well, some things are fate to be, accept it or leave it.

2010-08-28T05:17:00.000+08:00

Here am I to update my poor dead blog :(
But, I swear I had never forget 'bout my blog, just kinda neglected huh.

Yeah, there's some interesting event going on th day before yesterday which falls on 26'august.
It's my dearest Pengyou ; Aerisha 18th birthday (:
Was held at Club Atlantis @ Jurong .
R' & me went to get presents for her & over to plaza, meetup with Bff & tongchuan (:
Walked over to 103, dinner over there & slack at tongchuan's place.
Till it's time, 4 of us walked over to Aerisha's place, & cabbed over to Jurong straight!
Yes, that night was really fun though some things cropped up here & there. But, we can't let this small little cropped up spoil everything yeah?!
Went off at 12 to 1 a.m plus as birthday girl & tongchuan are kinda drunk huh. Yes, from this, you can see how enjoy they were! Laughs.
Stayed over with R' , brought supper back & I actually sleep only in th morning! Damn it, but lucky R' dint shout at me , if not I bet, I'll be so upset :(

Went home & slept all th way till night:( wakeup & prepared. Bused over to meet R' , had dinner with her & off I go to work.

That's why I'm home now, at this time, still freaking awake, updating my blog. Laughs.

I actually did smth funny today when I was alone in bus.
Suddenly th thought of those hostage attack in Manilla hits me. I put myself in those victims situation & i actually thought myself being killed & I was thinking how would R feels if I'm in this situation & eventually, I cried. Laughs, I know it's lame & crazy but I can't helped it :(

Okay, get over with my craziness & I guess I really gonna turn in, so goodnight earthlings!

2010-08-25T04:25:00.000+08:00

Finally, I'm back to update (: yeah, I've been missing for like so long since weeks.
Really have to apologize as I'm really busy. A damn one.
Working & all sorts of blah blah stuffs can totally occupied my time everyday.

Okay, everything is going quite smooth for me. Regardless work or daily life(: great blessings !

Spend my time mostly with R' , went to her workplace, & she would send me to work then. That's goes our day(:
Exception for Saturday , as I've got sintua that taken most of my time. But R' understands & she giving me all th trust bits by bits (: & Sunday would be th day both of us could actually spend our time to fullest (: I would be hers for that night , whole night (: laughs.

Despite of th quarrel last weekend, we managed to pull thru eventually.
Somehow, it's about a girl ; whom some of my fb friends actually seen wad I wrote on my wall. Nah, & I here start ranting it. This girl named 'Miaoyin ; Ahsteph' actually fallen for R' since long. Okay, for this, I understand her feelings & I don't blame her for it. Randomly, she told R' , her feelings for R' came back strongly. I mean, WTF ! That's was like so random please! Yeah, R' told me she was guilty over her. That's make me worse even more=.=
Shall not elaborate so much for th story aftermath.
Bottom line, I felt she's making herself cheap & slut. She should know R' alrd got a girlf & why came to R' so randomly?
Duh, I'm like so fed up.
But, thankfully, R' & me are still th same(:

Next one I'm gonna rant about is my work peeps=.=
Everyone is definitely okay & nice but there's one particular person I'm really detest of. Somehow, I always thinks he need to consult a physicist right away. Idk wad he's make of to make him so thick skinned & sucha basket ! Th sight of him make me wanna puke =.= fcuk it. I wish I could give him jus one punch to his face, jus one will do(: hiak hiak!

& for today, my dearest R' brought me KOI milk tea & NUNU (: loved. Much appreciation.
Thanks god for giving me sucha wonderful boyf(: I wan him & no more.

Nah, I guess shall end here for today. I hope readers won't get bored of my blog(:

-Post via IPhone (:

2010-08-10T14:25:00.000+08:00

Hey there, stop! Stay here & don't go !

Back back back (: I'm back!

Movie yesterday with R', Aerisha & her boyf.
Watched ; Phua Chu Kang @ Illuma (: th show was damn funny ! Thumbs up* for it, you won't wanna miss watching it. Catch it now(:

Walked over to street after movie, saw Kelle (:
Dragged her along with us to window shop. Saw Chantel working over there. Then, parted with Aerisha & her boyf as they got dinner, & we went to Burger King for dinner(: hehe.
Send Kelle to control station aftermath, then left me & R' ; having our very own world(:
Times up! R' send me to work & she went home.

That's goes my day ~

Shall end here(: & I'm trying t update everyday (:

2010-08-09T14:05:00.001+08:00

A simple note ; could jus brighten up my day(:

Yeah, I'm back to update (: a short post will do.

Last weekend, Saturday, R' stayed over my place(: i longed wanna this to happen. It make me felt so warm, having to hug her sleep in th night (: love it!

Yesterday was Sunday & I'm working. & I'm working without my mum :( & I can't shout every now & then for her help. Hehe.
Rushed off to work & reached there early. Chit chatting with Aerisha & co. No orders all th way as th night was still young, so meanwhile, boss drove me for dinner, then back for work(:
Order came in at around near to midnight. I'm laughing all th way yesterday night. Aerisha's boyf make us laughed like fcuk =.= lol.
End work early, balestier for supper (: thumbs up* for th food there!
Back home at 5am, K.O at 6am.

I'm having a date with R' later on. Movie timeeee (:
Hehe, I'm sure it gotta be a nice one !

I'm so thankful that I've gotten myself a boyf like R' (: she never failed to make me felt loved every now & then. Love die her !

Okay, shall end my post here.
Byeeee, & stayed tuned (:

2010-08-09T14:05:00.000+08:00

2010-08-07T05:37:00.000+08:00

Yes, it's me! I'm back to update after neglecting my blog for like so long. Hehe. I'm really busy & so much lazy & that's why(:

Okay, get back to my life.
Almost th same, working on weekdays, sintua on Saturday & Sunday is my day for R' .
It's like th same routine luh.

Congrats to me, peeps (:
I finally managed a job for like a month & I'm so enjoy working there. It's like so fun with pple there & I don't denied that I do gain weight working there as my job is to jus sit & answer calls while I can't stopped myself eating every now & there.

I'm quite satisfied with my life now, I got wad I wanted (: thankfully!

For my upcoming week, it's gotta be a stress & tiring week:( my mum took leave for one whole week & I'm taking over her for that one week. I'll be working from 6 to 3. Damn, I swear, I'll can jus faint once I start. Laughs.
But boss are motivating me to be strong & stay cool, so I'm doing it(:
That's come th worse part, I gotta bear not seeing R' for that one freaking week, & I feel like crying out loud. It's alrd a difficult task for me not to see her for one day, how can it expect not to see her for one week?! I'll go super crazy! But, thinking thru, I felt it's a test & obstacles for both of us to get thru(: & I hope we can do it.

I'm moving outta block139 & to my grandpa's place next week. Duh =.= my worse nightmare. Freaking shit! Gotta stand staying at my grandpa's place for a year, & I hope I would not turn crazy staying there. & shall be moving next year. Say "HI" to Hougang, "BYE" to Bukit Panjang(: awww~ I gona miss BP so much, not to th place, but my lovely ones here:(

I'm kinda sot-plugged, fancy updating my blog at this freaking time, 535am. Haas, I'm not even sleeping yet.

& I should end here before I really overslept tmr(: I'm meeting R' for lunch later afternoon, I'm so much looking forward & I'm missing her like fcuktard fatty (: hehe.

Goodnights for me & good morning to you peeps :)

Iphone

2010-07-29T14:34:00.000+08:00

Yeah, it's been a long time I ever update this deadly blog of mine.
Well, I've been really busy nowadays. Busy with this & that.

I bet you guys miss me that much huh? Lol.

For now, my life is getting much more stable job with a stable income which can keeps me surviving on, thankfully(: & of course, R' get herself a job too.
Due to work, I'm always stuck at home cus' I'm freaking tired & lazy to get my butt outta my house. Cool!

Actually alot of things had been going on, so scary ~ aww. Gossips everywhere, humans nowadays are getting far too much but wadever it is, not bothering much is th best (:

Duh, I miss R' , bff, tong & Xian (: yeah! Hopefully can spend more time with all of them.

Relationship between R' & I are getting better alrd (: much more better in fact. We get to see each other almost everyday, yeah! I'm loving it :D & I love her each & everyday more (:

I guess I shall end here, as I gotta work at th same time. Stay tuned guys for more !

- Post via iPhone (:

2010-07-17T22:59:00.000+08:00

Missing In Action (:

Hello people ! I know i'm been missing from my blog like for like sucha long time.

Nah, my lappy haven't been send for repair yet & i bet it's dying soon. Duh =.=

Okay, where should i start from?!

I've been busy working, working & working. Other than working, spend time with Darling, nothing else alrd :x Bored die.

Got my second pay which i can say, i do really enjoyed working over my currently job (:

Cool & Fun loving ! Cheers (:

Start to save money & spend wisely.

Like only for food & those stuffs i wanted.

As i know well, i'm holding on to line instead of prepaid.

Finally after so long, i get to meet up with my Bff (:

& we spend almost everyday together for th past few days (:

Yes, it's cool ! I hope we wont drift yeah.

& of course not forgetting R'

Our relationship? Worst or better should i say?

Better actually but peeps who know wad recently happened are really smth i can never forget :(

But, no matter wad, i still have to say i'm deeply in love with her (:

Even our commitment had been thrown down, but it will still stay in my heart.

Life have been going smoothly for me & i hope this can last & stay on this way (:

I really hope =.=

Haas, can you guys imagine?

My mum get on to trend with us, brought a I-phone for her too (:

& one shocking thing, just bcus wanted to get a I-phone for my mum.

Due to traffic jam at town, R' & me actually alight & walked all th way from FEP to PS, which was like WTF =.= It's killing me with sweat ! Ended up when we reached there, Starhub actually closed . Fcuk !

End up, we can only buy today & thankfully, we managed (:

Okay, i guess i should end my post here as i got nothing to update for now (:

Stayed tune for my dying blod to come alive very soon !

2010-07-03T21:11:00.001+08:00

Hello peeps (:

I know i'm kinda missing from my blog for like sucha long time :(

Yeah, i've got so much to update but i can't recalled everything in one shot. Guess jus a short update will do (:

My lappy at home had been sentenced to death due to jealously :( Once i brought my I-phone, my lappy commit suicide straight, duh =.=

I'm going to send it for repair & see if it will rose from th dead not. Hopefully, it does (:

I gotten myself a stable job for now, at last (:

It fulfilled all my expectations ; slack, easy, fast cash, high pay, timing. Yeah :D So cool !

This job is jus to answers call & take order from them & that's it.

It will only be busy on th weekends & thats mean, weekdays, i doing shit there (: Laughs.

Hopefully this job can last me long & most importantly to spend time with R' (:

Nah, idk wad else should i update so i should stop here huh.

Oh yar, i forgotten (:

I realised that typical "xmm" is sucha coward sey .

Why dun dare to face me? Or jus simply know how to talk big in your freaking blog?

Thats why i said, you jus know how to rant in your blog instead of facing me?

Why? Afriad been lonely like a dog on that day?!

Relationship with R' is much more better (:

Although we have been quarreling over times & worst, everytime breakup here & there.

But, i know our love is strong yeah :D I'm super love you.

2010-06-27T23:59:00.002+08:00

It's A I-Phone Day :)

Hi people !
Finally, i have to say, R' , Bff & me gotten th same phone. AT LAST (:
Although we din't brought on th same day but, at least we can share so many things together.
Nice one huh (:
Woke up by R' call, got up & get prepared.
Met up with Bff first & Blood @ BPP.
Before i got my I-phone, we went to Jack's Place for lunch.
Then, Mummy came, supposedly i can sign my plan at BPP but idk wad's wrong that i had to head down to Westmall to get it done. Duh =.=
So, 5 of us went down to Westmall & YES ! I've got it :D
Went to shop around & thought of going down to SimLim Square to get my phone done.
R' & me bused down there while th rest went home.
Sadly, all th shops was closed except for a few which i dun think it's suits. Damn.
So, bused home aftermath.

& Yeah ! I'm really happy not jus bcus i've gotten my new phone but well, my feelings runs about.
HOHO, on th other hand, i really gotta buck up & start working. Duh =.=
Yeps, probably im starting work on Tues.
PLEASE ! LET ME MADE IT :D

Tmr i'm going to get one more I-phone for my Mum (:
Yeah, sounds like we're somehow having I-phone trend. Wad's going on?! Laughs.
It's really cool (:

There's still so much things i gotta learn so that i can actually slowly make my phone to a better one. Ha, guess wad?! I'm super not used with touch screen phone & i'm trying hard to adapt to it.

Readers, wish me goodluck :)

Nah, i just get to realize some funny little small girl start her ranting at her blog again. Duh =.=
I dun understand why she got to be so terase over wad i wrote on my blog?
Oh! I almost forgotten, she's someone who is jus freaking 15years old kiddo, & fancy trying to act matured :D LOL!
Little girl, listen up. How many times mus i said? Your words wont pulled me down instead, you make me laugh at you. You're jus a typical "xmm", get it?!
Saying that i'm repeating every of your words or wadever shits. Show me then (:
Wad?! I bet you seen my dictionary isn't? If dun, dun assume. Damn.
Anw, dun jus curse or rant in your blog with those fluent english, it's makes you lose face babe (:

Okay, shall end my post here (:
Duh, i'm off to set my phone !

2010-06-25T16:45:00.001+08:00

Th Only One I Wan You To Be ; D.S.X.Y (:

Hi peeps !
Yeah, i've changed my blogskin few days back.
As i get bored easily with blogskin. Lol.
Nah, but i preferred simple skins instead of those complicated ones which i had to spend like freaking hours to figure out, that's bad huh .

Well, this few days had been hanging out there, same places & same rountine.
BPP, bangkit or chuplao. Nah, i'm used to it.
& most of th times, i'm with Blood, R' & Aerisha (: Haas.
But, i do miss my Bff so damn much :D !
I haven been seeing her for weeks, i bet.
Duh, she's busy with work & i'm usually out somewhere when she's free.
& i'm like finally meeting her up today :) Yeah !

R' got so into I-phone recently & she planned to get one this coming week.
Damn, & due to her influence, i'm kinda curious of having a I-phone or should i said, i wanted it too :D Yeah, so i've been looking hard for jobs & shall discuss it with R' later on (:
I hope this could be a turning point for me to buck up & get hardworking to keep my bills steady.
So many pple is getting I-phone, would it be too uncommon? Or outdated?
Duh, like i said, Singaporeans are always so "KIA-SU" ! Haha.
Isn't true?!

Yeah !
Tmr i'll be going out together with R' (:
& she's gona get me wad i wan . Loved her much !
I dun ususally asked for any stuffs other than food, so she wont feel heartbreak at least, i bet.
It's true we've been quarreling over th smallest things & sometimes, both of us tends to be so demanding but deep down we know, we wont fall (:
Nah, those pple out there, know who you are, wanting to see us apart?!
Shall wait a lifetime of yours duh.
I guess you wont able to see me be on my knees & beg for forgiveness, damn bitch (:
Let's see whose Karma shall come first.

Shall end my post here (:
Goodbye readers !

2010-06-22T00:00:00.000+08:00

A Hint Of Love ; A Bit Of Fear.

(: Smile everyone !
Today my money is just like free-flow & i spend my 20bucks in less than 2hours :( Isn't it fast?!

Went out for Sing along session together with Blood @ CSC.
Meet up with Ahtong & Huixian (:
Have so much fun there, sing & sing.
Ended at 8pm.
Bused back to BP together with Blood & meet up with Aerisha.
Head to Pasar Malam to walk.
Okay, all i can say, is damn sucks !
Know wad, my money was spend almost all bcus i went to Pasar malam.
Th foods are damn expensive >.<
Nah, things aren't cheap anymore as wad we think. Damn !
& home aftermath.

Nah, nothing new happen & i'm doing almost th same thing everyday :(
Fcuk, that's bored :(

I hope i wont rot for long anymore ; Jus let me do something please !!!

Shall end my post here duh.
I'm getting lazy to type & type.
Goodnights Earthlings (:

2010-06-21T12:35:00.000+08:00

It's An Awesome Show (:

Hi people !
Back to update for my dying blog . LOL!

18'June.
Bugis with Mum & R'
Went praying & meetup with Mum's friend.
Slacked at coffee shop for a freaking long time.
& we head over to Bugis Street ; Shopping time (:
I brought one wallet ; one flips ; one bag (L)
Super cool !
Aerisha came along too.
Cabbed over to I-Pub again, drinking session (:
Then home aftermath.

19'June.
Out for Movie with R' (:
Wakeup & prepared, bused over to JP .
Brought our tickets & have Subway for lunch.
Then, walk walk till time's up !
It's Movie Time :D
Watched "THE KARATE KID" ; Rated ` 5/5**
This show was awesome !! Damn nice !!
Readers, if you haven't get to watched, better dun missed it !
Meetup with Blood later on after our movie.
Bused over to Sintua.
Had Kfc before going up (:
Slacked at Sintua , then send R' down to bus-stop.
& back home 4a.m plus :(

20'June .
Sing along session together with Aerisha & her boyf, R' & me, Ahtong & Xian came awhile, Blood came too (:
Had so much fun there although i cried for almost an hour cause R' bullied me :(
Nah, i dun bear to let her go, that's why i've cried for like so long.
Back to normal, we played & jokes around :D Cool !
Aerisha's boyf send us back to BP.
R', Blood & me drop off at BPP, had Mac's for dinner.
& shopping spree at Daiso when we spot it newly launch !
Wow ! It's damn big, we walk rounds & rounds.
Till BPP is closing. Laughs.
Then, back home aftermath.

Duh, idk am i enjoying my life or like wasting my time.
I need a job damn seriously uhs :( Fcuk!
But at th same time, im glad to have all my peeps around me & especially R' (:

--R' , you should know i only love you.
Enjoyed talking to you over th phone for hours despite our quarrel before that.
I really love to see you get pisssed off & being so sweet towards me.
I dun need any bears or cutie stuffs to brighten up my day, as long i've gotten you & you're willing to feed me eat well, im contented enough, i swear (:
To you, there's no one can be like you that i can wholeheartedly being in love with !

Shall end my post here (:
Readers, tagged & tagged please !!!

2010-06-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

That's When I Love You ; My Girlish Boy (:

Hello Readers :) !
Reached home around 8p.m today, which is kinda early uhs.
Yeah, sucha tiring day for R' & me.

Yesterday night went down to I-Pub, which my mum used to work there.
Together with R', Janice & Blood came along aftermath.
Mum was there too & sadly, something bad happened :(
Had a big quarreled with my mum over there & was making a big fuss over it. Damn !
But luckily, things was better after a good sleep.
I dun blame my mum, as she's damn drunk.

Woke up quite early this morning.
& a little conflict with R'.
& we managed to settle things (:
Prepared all, off we go for interview .
Been to alot of places, bused here & there.
Tired but i do enjoyed (: Cus' it's with my beloved R' .
Both places we interviewed sucks :( Damn.
Th most freaking hell is that one of th boss said my hair was messy. Fcuk it !
I dun think she gotten any sense of style. Eeks ~
After all th interviews, went over to Parkway for dinner (:
R' feed me like a BIG BABY :D
Can you readers imagine? I ate one big freaking plate of "Char Kuay Teow" & 2 Chicken wings with one Hotdog?! I'm like super bloated (:
So i said, R' never fails to feed me well.
Have a stick & we both parted & bused back home.
I'm superb tired & eventually, i fell asleep in th bus :) Hees.

&& Tmr, Bugis with Mummy :D Yeah !
I hope she can get me bag which i yearns for . I'll love her even more !

I'm so into Nightclub City @ Facebook .
Kinda in-activated in anything. Laughs.

Sometimes, i wonder?
Why can't Singapore try to become a much more open-minded country?!
How i envy other countries where they can get married even they're lesbians :( Cool isn't?!
But, i just hope my mum could accept for who i'm as times goes by .

Yeah ! Shall end my post here.
Seem like my blog rotting :(
Readers, do tagged alrights?! Loved (:

2010-06-16T16:41:00.000+08:00

You're my Superman :D

Hi People !
Im at home, fb-ing all th way & im kinda addicted to Nightclub City @ FB (:
R' was addicted too, & she can played till late midnight.

Things happened so unpredictable :(
Blood's boyf was caught & i felt upset for her.
She cried & trying to cheer herself up but i bet this kind of feelings are unbearaable .
Still, i hope she know we're here for her, to keep her going on with life (:
Blood ; Dun think too much alrights? There's ways to make you stay strong, i bet (:
So, dun worry kaes? You still have us to make your life havoc, jus stay cool yeah !

Hasn't been to anywhere.
Being with R' all these while & spending our nights almost everyday (:
Loved !
She's been trying so hard to satisfy me all these while, trying to make me happy.
I'm glad to have her around, im sure (:
I know this day shall come by, where she will just disappear out of my sight.
But, i hope this day wont come & could make it stay this way.

Interview later on (:
Hope i passed !

Shall end here.
I'm sorry for my freaking short post. I'm lazy.

2010-06-14T14:50:00.000+08:00

Blissfully In Love ; SHER'AY ♥

This post is specially delicate to my Dearest Darling Boyf ; D.S.X.Y ; My JerkAss (:

Happy One Year Anniversary !
Thankfully, we managed to pull thru' for this long.
Yeah. Though we fought more than we had fun, argue more than we talked.
& in this one year, we quarreled like for 10 months every now & then.
But, i believe our love is strong enough to hold on all these.
& even though our time for each other seem to get lesser, i still believe our love never fade.
Down here, i wana thank you for being sucha tolerance boyf towards me for my stubborness & demanding, pampered me with food everyday, never fail to fill me with all my wants instead of needs.
I know you've been working so hard, earn money to feed me well & not to let me suffer.
Im really thankful (:
Even though you might seem so easily angry, so damn sick of me, a egotistic person & those words you dun mean it to hurt me. But still, i love you.
Your sweetness make my heart melts, your nasty words filled our r/s much more happening, your child-like sleep make me wana sayang you more, your smile brighten up my day, your cool face make me felt more secure. I simply love your everything, my dear boy .
Dun doubt my love for you, cause' to me, you're my everything i wanted.
I do hope, in future, we could be more understanding towards each other & learn more things to build a stronger r/s ahead.
We came thru' so much things in th past, whether good or bad.
That bring us to now (:
So, we mustn't give up & to fight for our love.

Though today Anniversary wasn't a remembered one which im kinda upset.
But, i've done my part to let you know you're loved (:
& i should be understanding enough to know you're busy working.

For you, i'll never let my hands off.
For you, i'll strive to be a better one.
For you, i'll learn every little things.
For you, i'll make it.
For you, i'll live on.

R' ; You're always mine (:

2010-06-13T13:25:00.000+08:00

BOOM BOOM POW !!

Hi People !
I've been wanting to update my blog after th Beach Party held two days ago.
But, im kinda busy with stuffs here & there.

11'June ; Friday.
Was so excited over th party & so much looking forward.
So, prepared myself at Tongchuan's place due to his Sintua.
So i helped thru' halfway.
Together with R', Janice, Chanel, we cabbed over down to Sentosa@Siloso Beach .
Meetup with her both friends there.
& walked over to th party.
In between, we lost our way.
Damn it, luckily, we managed to look for it.
Queue is not that long, & we get in quite fast.
But, th bad thing was we have to queue for th "Bag Keeping"
as we're not allowed to bring any bags in.
Omfg, we queued almost up to one freaking hour manzxz :(
After that, went in to th dancefloor.
& something cropped up between R' & me.
Im lazy to elaborate but all i can said is, it's totally spoiled my mood for that night.
& im truly disappointed with all th actions .
But forget it, event early too due to police raid. Fcuk it !
Which means, i fcuking waste my 25 bucks on this freaking event.
It's was sucks though ! Seriously.
No more, once it's enough & i'll never step in this kinda sucky event :(
Reached home around 5a.m, washed up & K.O at 6a.m.

12'June ; Sat.
Woke up, slacked with R'.
Then, prepared, outta my place.
R' went for work while i went over Guoping's Sintua.
Sintua held all th way till late night .
Fun but tiring !

& I guess, i shall stop my post here.
I'm getting kinda lazy to think of wad to update.
Damn it.
Goodbye readers (:

2010-06-10T12:46:00.000+08:00

Reality Speaks ; Lies Hide.

Good Afternoon peeps !
An owl turns into an early bird today (:

Yesterday dinner with my family was great !
We had Korean cuisine.
Rating sucks seriously.
It wasn't that delicious i thought of.
& i still preferred Japanese cuisine as usual.
But, i was damn bloated after that.
& Brother brought me to Old Town for coffee session while waiting for Mum to end work.
I had ice-cream & till now, i still detest ice-cream :(

Stayed over with R' yesterday night after my dinner with my family.
Talked a little while, spend a little time with each other.
Joke a little bout' our ugly pattern.
& off to bed (:
Didn't really sleep well, somehow being interrupt by someone.
R' wake me up around 9a.m & i heard voices of shouting & nagging which wakes me up too.
Duh, washed up & bused over to Chup-Lao.
Had our breakfast there, slacked a little while.
& I bused home aftermath.

I somehow felt i've changed alot.
Idk how should i put in words.
But, wadever it is, i jus dun give a damn (:

--R' , I slowly beginning to understand how tough you've been thru' everything.
Bcus of me, you have to work so hard, so that i wouldn't have to depend on my family.
& i know you've done so much & you never chose to give up despite wad peeps said.
Im really thankful to have you as my boyf, my dearest one.
Idk how to mend back your tiredness of being with me.
But, for wad i know, im trying to be so mych understanding to you.
& learning to be less demanding, stubborn.
I hope you see it & for all, i love you.
I'm gona say it this last time.
You're my precious piece of gold (:

2010-06-09T18:34:00.000+08:00

Will You Catch Me If I Fall?

Hi People !
I'm starving right now :( But, i gona tahan till late evening, later on & head down to Mum's working place for dinner (:

Yesterday went down to R' working place, accompanied her slacked there.
Went to collect my pay too, then fetched Aerisha from bus-stop & back to R' workplace.
We sing & dance there like free only, we make ourselves like our own place. Laughs :D Great time!
Then, after closing, walked over to Guess Where2, our workplace (: Bff's working too.
Drinking session there.
& over to ClubZone aftermath.
Home at 2a.m, K.O !

I'm currently looking for job once again.
Money is never enough for me, Damn it !
Readers, if you happen to read this, any job intro.
Do tag me (: TYVM !

My r/s with R' ain't getting any better, or should i said i'm trying hard to mend back this time round? Hms.
But still, everytime when th thoughts flashed thru', i went blank immediately.
I know quite a number of peeps detest me now due to my character of how i treat R' & her friends.
& frankly speaking, i'm not upset at all.
But, somehow i felt that i'm growing weaker each day due to th criticism & those peeps who actually wait for th day where R' & me end.
I know deep down, R' dunwana end this r/s, it's all bcus of me.
Well, she's afraid i might find troubles with anyone out there.

--R' , it seem that we are okay now.
But jus to let you know, if i happen to switch my temper & quiet down.
Im sorry. Really sorry.
I can't helped myself from thinking how peeps out there look down upon us.
Their words dun bring me down but your words do.
Yeah, i love you. I'll always do (:

2010-06-06T23:10:00.002+08:00

Bored die me :(
Im so alone at home .
Damn, with a job on hand cant passed my time at all.
I need to change my job, i guess.
If i continue sucha long time as a part time, i think i will die soon :( Lol.

I've no much things to update also.
Everyday has been doing th same thing. Fcuk!

R' started her work alrd & so, thats mean, im kinda neglected too :(
Yeaa, but idk wadever status we're in now.
We bring up breakup every now & then.
R's th director & im th one who act.
Which says, she's th one who jus out of sudden changed everything & me? Being th one who follow it.
Idk should i be happy or upset?!
Sometimes you can be too nice & sweet that im contented enough.
But, on th other hand, you can being too possessive which im too but yours are worst though. & treat me worst than your enemy, thats when i broke up into tears almost every night.
I cant stop myself not to restrict everything you did.
But now, im trying hard to.
& im learning to let you go, enjoy who you wana with which is your friends.
I tried not to miss you that much like before, tried not to keep gazing at your fb profile like one idiot, tried not to let those memories of us to keep flashing on & on.
Jus to make me stop thinking :(
I know it well myself that my love hasn't fade at all but its jus th numbness im having right now.
Likewise, i always wanted to mend & talk things out in a proper way but both our temper are enough for a fight.
& this lead you to avoid & end like this.
We stopped for a moment & back together again as per normal & reason we gave would be "Let each other cool down".
Afterall, th reason i wanted to know most ain't this .
& both of us jus keep deep down & left unspoken.

--R' i love you no matter wad.
I can be violent, attitude giver, attention seeker, unreasonable,
wild & weird but i still cares.
My emotions never fails to stop bcus there's you that keep moving them.
Making my day so much different each & every day.

2010-06-06T03:32:00.002+08:00

To: That damn 15 year old small bitch.
(Mindset as if worse than a 15year old, & act as if she's matured enough to talk craps.)

Your words dun pull me down, bitchy freak (:

It doesn't matter whether if your post its about me or not, really.
I dun give a damn too.
But still, im happy that you actually waste your time typing all these shits about me on your blog.
Laughs, your words make me laugh, brighten up my day perhaps.
Please dun think that i would thank you for your post for me, i wont. Instead i find that you're even much more childish than i could think of.
Anw, your words dun pulled me down too (:
& if you do & wanted to comment with any nasty stuffs, please come straight to my face instead to your blog. It's making you lose face too.
Anw, karma do exists & i believe yours will come soon too. Wait & see.
Let shall see, whose karma will fall upon first.
I plead for forgiveness?! Damn, i bet you totally got it wrong.
You dun know me well enough babe. Think before you talk.
Im who im anw, wadever i do doesn't concern you too. Whether if i did any funny or uncivilized things in public, you've got no rights to even bother, get it?! Laughs.

& i wont hide inside th room like you to cried over & think of how pple treat you.
I will still stand strong as i'm cause im not a kid like you.
A 15 year old kiddo, acting as if you're 18.
Talking with sucha manner like your parents didn't teach you before.
Opps, i almost forgotten, you're an unwanted child.
With no parents who brought you in a better manner. I felt so pity for you.
But, i'm glad that you deserves all these.
& also, i can never compared to you.
As wad you've said ; Wadever big shots im or wadever shits.
Laughs, you're someone who are freaking UNDER WARRANT ARREST :( Damn it, thats so bad.
& it's 2010, fancy running away from home? Lol, you're doing so much little kids stuffs.
So funny, making my toes laughs.

I dun curse pple with their looks bcus they are born with a mother & a father.
& good family.
& YOU, a unwanted child & thats why you actually cursed pple with looks.

Oh, get a life please.
Stop ranting in your blog.
Why not? Come out for a talk, & rant all you want (:

2010-06-04T14:29:00.000+08:00

I'm Your Biggest Fan, I'll Follow You Until You Love Me .

Hi People !
Im getting more & more lazy to update my rotting blog =.= LOL!
But still, i tried to recall everything i did & share it with peeps (:

Th day before, gotten into a fight with Darling.
Which cause us to a broke up.
Yeaa, i broke into tears & cabbed down to look for Bff @ her workplace, which i had been going down for this one whole week, whether if im working not. Laughs.
So, waited for Bff to end work, accompanied her for supper then cabbed home.
Bff came to my place, we talk craps & out of sudden th feeling of going out came.
Bff tempts me =.= Lol, so changed & stuffs.
Cabbed down Oasis.
Nah, we dint drink there but to enjoy th music there.
But still, me & Bff was bored die manzx.
As we still preferred, jus th both of us will be better (:

Yesterday,
Went down to workplace again.
Drinking session (:
Together with Tong & Darling.
Bff was working.
Had fun all th way till closing.
Back home, K.O straight.
I was freaking tired :(

Till now, i felt i dint get enough sleep :(
Cramps, moodswing. Damn it !

Payday is coming soon :D Yeah!
Which means i'll be able to do quite alot of things i wanted to.
Th most importantly is to get my hair dyed !

& lastly, i got nothing to update about :(
I'm sorry peeps.
I'm lazy duh.
Goodbye (:

2010-06-01T15:36:00.001+08:00

Sixth Sense Are Always Women's Greatest Friend.

Well, im back to update.
Should i said, im quite sad over certain things.
But, when its comes that you have to accept th changes, you have to .
Im feeling so different nowadays, i tried pushing this kind of fcukup feeling aside but it became even stronger days after nights.
Damn, i know its coming soon & im telling myself i gotta stand strong at th end of th day.

Everything hasn't been going well for me.
Work, friends, love, family.
Damn, everything is totally outrageous !
Im trying to hold back my tears so that i can learn to stand strong at th end of th day.

Work ; I cant convert to full-time which was quite a upset to me.
But, im happy as my Bff is alrd one (:

Friends ; I seem to be losing all & i seem to avoid & to get away from every single one.

Love ; That's worse :(
I sense it bad & i bet R' gotten someone new in her life.
Nah, i dun blame her instead i knew it this day would come by.
Can you ever imagine, i saw in every text, even when i saw her using fb, all she did was to text & fb chat with her.
Which i dun seem to be th one.
Right now, we're under one roof but we aren't talking.
We seem to had a gap in between which hurts me alot.
Seriously, im alrd numb.
I told myself i gotta be well prepared for th worst of all.
I dunwan end up being hurt th most.
R' in fact tries to put in alot of efforts in this relationship which i dun.
I admit but i used to tried my best & now, i guess idk wad else to keep her by my side any longer.
& yeaaa, wad else can i expect more .

Its raining heavily now.
But, our silence can even break th voice of th raindrops.
This isn't us :(

--R' , i sensed it well that you had a crush on her.
I bet you know who im mentioning.
Yea, i dun blame you.
If you think she should be th right girl for you, jus go ahead yea.
Dun ever think of me being th one getting hurt .
Im trying my best to be strong as ever.
Now, you're beside me, but not a work spoken.
We indeed drift alot :(
Goodluck for th one you wanted long ago (:

2010-05-28T19:10:00.000+08:00

If Only... Im Can Be Your Last Romance.

Hi Peeps !
A tired & enjoyable day today (:

Stayed over with Darling yesterday night.
Then, wakeup in th morning, prepared & everything.
Bused over to Eunos together with Darling & her bro and girlf.
Meetup with Janice, Deping & Tong there.
Off we set to Escape Theme Park @ Downtown East !
Cool :D Th crowd wasn't that much so we managed to finish almost all th games in one hour time.
Go-kart, Wet&Wild, Pirate Ship, Family Roller Coaster, Haunted House, Superman.
Wow! We shout like nobody business & have so much fun there :)
Nah, but all th exciting games are all closed down :( So, dint get to thrill there.
Exit at around 1.30p.m, head over to Downtown & had our lunch there.
Cabbed back to BP & home im (:
Going over to Tong's place later on. LOL!
Yipees, i hope for more events & outings in future :D I swear all these can make me laugh even more, enjoy my life even more (: Compared to highhigh life, all those unwanted sick life, i preferred th life im having now (:

& thats goes my day.
Tmr work again (:
Renovation end & new environment for us too.
Hope for a better night tmr.

Darling & me are continuously quarreling non-stop hits this few days.
Duh, idk th problem lies on where.
But still, i love her even though i said i never wanted to care anymore.
Which girlf wont gets jealous when seeing your own boyf adding his/her ex in fb?!
Wadever it is, i jus wan her to know i still cares :(

Shall end my post here.
Gona prepare & off i go to Tong's place.

2010-05-27T00:00:00.001+08:00

WISHING A BLISSFUL MARRIAGE TO MY DEAREST FRIEND, APPLE (:

Hi Peoples !
Stayed overnight at my Sis's place.
Wedding next day (:
Had so much fun !

Dinner at night.
Happening & enjoyable especially with TAN MEINAH entertainment (: LOL!

Wishing my Beloved Apple Sis a happy marriage (:
No matter how tough this route she & her husband had to go thru, i believe th upcoming baby can bring both of them happiness (:

2010-05-25T14:54:00.002+08:00

HAPPPPPPPYYYYY 19th BIRTHDAYYY TO ME (:

My mummy & me (:

My Baby & Tongtong (:

One Family (: Mum, Bro & Me (:

Th fabulous couples ; Me & Darling, Baby & Tong (:

Darling & Me (:

My loved ones (:
Above photos are all taken during my birthday celebration held at Downtown East (:
I celebrated in advance which is on 22th .
Most of th photos are kinda blur, so for th clear ones, catch up on fb (:

Th crowd only came in nearly 9pm.
So, before that i was like running here & there for food (:
I swear, cake cutting session is th most memorable ones !
& in my whole 18years of life, nobody ever threw th WHOLE CAKE at my face :D Laughs.
But, it was really fun & enjoyable !
All my loved ones came down & i really appreciate it (:

Afterall, these are th MOST IMPORTANT ONES I SPECIALLY HAD TO BE THANKFUL OF (:
That is, My one & only MUMMY (: Who did so much for me even though she keep nagging.
Next, My Dearest Darling D.S.X.Y (: Who put in so much effort in my birthday party.
Then, followed by my Beloved BABY DEPING (: Who spend so much money & never sleep jus to helped out with my stuffs .
& together with ONG TONGCHUAN ; My bro (: Who smash th cake on me ! Haas .

Hopefully, its a brand new life for me (:
Lol, th funniest thing is i dint even make any wish during cake cutting session as i gotten too much wishes that i wanted . So, i jus hope everything can come true (: Heehee !

Kaes, im going over to Apple's place tonight & staying over there.
As she's getting married tmr ! Woohoos :D Im so excited !
& of course im so happy for her !
Tonight & tmr will be a great night (: Cool !

Byeeeee, readers !
Catch up for more @ Cherry Shayestar Blog (:
Haas. Im bored :x Entertain me will do !

2010-05-20T21:47:00.000+08:00

My Commitment To Love You ;

Hi Peoples (: !
Im rather tired :/

Yesterday ; 19'May.
Darling & bff accompanied me down to work (:
Drink as usual.
All th way till i ended work.
Cool (: Darling was drunk & i swear she looks fcuking adorable when she's drunk !
Th way she talks & her actions make me laugh.
Went home K.O after wash-up but but but, i couldnt get to sleep when i was alrd like half-dead :(
My body is like so freaking hot that makes me so uncomfortable sey.

Wakeup in th early afternoon.
Watched my Hongkong Series Show.
Till Darling called me.
Prepared & bused down to SimLim.
Okay, small quarrel with Darling :/
But, still okay after that.
Im sad cause th time i spend with Darling today is so damn short !
We bused down to Geylang, dinner time & im back home !

Working tmr (:
& im so looking foward to my chalet !
So much fun with those my beloved friends :D
Most importantly, my bff;Deping is gona be with me all th way thru all !
Still, all thanks to my Mum, Darling&her bro, my precious bff;Deping (:
Who brought me so much happiness.
I guess with you guys around, im contented enough yea.

I dun care whose coming down or not.
Whether wad excuse to me, are true anot.
Seriously, i dun care (:
I know wad's good for me & wad's not.
&& thanks for those who're coming for my celebration (:
Its a great blessing for me to overcome those freakos !

--Sealed your kiss into my heart & never let it slips away.

2010-05-19T12:57:00.000+08:00

Lead Me To Where I Belong ;

Im down with sore throat & cough :(
Bet next would be fever.

Yesterday ; 18'May.
Fetched Darling off from work.
Bused down to Hougang. Th journey was like damn long uhs :x
Had Kfc for lunch which i knew i will fall sick after eating =.="
Haas, i cant resists temptation.
Metup with Maine'kor2 awhile (: Happy 18th birthday to her !
Three of us went for haircut. Laughs.
Then, i went off with Darling (:
Spend time with her till 9pm & i left.
Bused & trained over to BP ; Fajar.
Looked for Deping'bff (:
Slacked with her till 11p.m.
Cabbed back home at 12midnight (:
K.O at 1.30a.m :x

Darling is working currently :(
Im missing her so badly seriously.
Sighs, how i wish she was now by my side together with me .
Now, we had lesser time to spend due to work.
But, i hope all these wont pull us apart :(

Im having my Off-days for 2days alrd.
Damn, im rotting :(
I need money, money, money !

&& My chalet is jus 2days to go ~ !
Im superb duper looking forward to it :D
But, some pple words jus hurts me uhs.
I dunwana mention who but to that person who said this.
Seriously, i dun fcuk whether you guys wana come down not, get it?!
It doesnt make a difference whether you guys are attending not.
Fcuk ! Dun understand why nowadays pple are sucha freako?

--My heartbeat beats faster each time when i look into your eyes.

2010-05-17T20:01:00.001+08:00

Cause' Its The Rhythm Of The Night (:

Hellos Readers !
There's so much for me to update but i cant recalled all :( Lol.

Firstly, im currently working as a waitress in a Pub @ Chinatown.
& im happy that i can work together with my Bff, Deping (: Cool !
Everything is going smoothly during my work.
So, i hope this job can last me long (:
Yea, Darling dislikes it alot but money have to be th very first thing i wana earn so that Darling & I can lead a better life ahead with no worries (:

Celebrated Darling & I 11th Month Monthsary (:
Great time !
Went Timah for lunch (: Thumbs up for th food there !
Then, Lot1 aftermath.
Meetup with Wyn too.
Overnight together with Darling (: Loved !

For now, Mum, Darling & I are busy preparing for th upcoming chalet.
&& im surprised that Mum actually forked out quite a big sum for my Bbq's stuffs !
A big thankyou (:

Congrats Darling that you've gotten yourself a job (:
Work hard !

Gotta work hard & get a life to a better one .
I dunwan Darling & mine's life became like some pple who cant even afford to eat.
& being so realistic towards us. Lol.
Remember it hard, we dun owe you both anything uhs !

Shall end my post here.
Will try to update oftenly (:
Byeeeee Readers !

--There's never hardship if you're willing to live on.

2010-05-13T21:42:00.000+08:00

My Greatest Gift ; Im So Thankful (:

Hello Readers !
Im back to update (:

Yesterday, quarreled occurs between Darling & me.
Both parties are in fault.
Bcus of this quarreled, i stay awake for th whole night jus to catchup with th first bus .
I thought i had no hope anymore & so i really wanted to give up.
But, deep down i really cant let go :(
& my efforts are not being washed down th drain.
Darling forgive me (: Thankfully !
So, slacked with Darling & back home (:

Meanwhile, Darling made me a special birthday gift in advance.
I swear, i cried.
Im so touched by it cause i've been blaming her for spending time on computer instead accompanying me but i was all wrong, im sorry :(
I deeply appreciated it (: I love darling !

&& Of course, th one & only never be forgotten ; WONG DEPING :)
My dearest baby bff !
Thanks to her that thru out all these while whenever anything happen to me, she's th first to always stand by me & helped me in so much things that i can never returned.

Shall end my post here.
As i gona finish up my Ducky Rice (:
& let my pitiful eyes which had been opened since yesterday night rest.
Goodnights Earthlings :D !

2010-05-12T23:30:00.001+08:00

Im Never A Good Girlfriend.

I thought i could do anything, everything to keep you mine.
I thought i can do th best to make you smile.
I thought we could actually overcome every obstacles together.
I thought we could became couples that everyone envy.
I thought im th one who can always stay by your side.
I thought there's always a way for us to pull thru.
I thought we could talk things out when we argue.
I thought we can fulfill every incomplete hopes & dreams.
I thought i will be your last.
I thought im your only one.
I thought i can have you wholeheartedly.
I thought i could be your everything.
I thought we could gaze at th stars till th sun rises.
I thought i can belong to you till im old.

Everything is jus my naive thoughts.
Everything can never happen anymore.
Everything jus ended in silence.

Im hoping for th last miracle to happen.
Im hoping for th last chance to appear.
Im giving it a try, try my best to mend.
Idk how much i can manage to mend back but i guess i did tried :(

2010-05-11T22:46:00.000+08:00

Feel Th Power Of SHER'AY (:

Hello Readers ! Im here to update my blog.
Okay, im doing th same thing almost everyday.
Wakeup in th early morning, out to look for Darling.
Spend time with her till night time, & home.
Going on for almost one week alrd & everything is still fine (:
Except that Darling & I had a big quarreled few days back that caused us to fight.
Suffered injuries like blue-black on my hands & my couple tee is kinda torn or can i say enlarge?
Lol, Darling did suffered injuries too. But mine seem to be worst.
Ended up, a short broke up.
& patched back in a funny way :D Pple who read my fb should know how funny was it.
& fighting seem to be a daily routine for us. & i guess our love life is much more weird than anyone else. Laughs.

08'May2010.
Went down to Boat quay for drinking session @ 12Element (:
Its was Chanel&Celestine last day of work there, so we went down.
Bring along Darling's bro down too.
Met up with Deping&Tongchuan there.
Drink & Drunk (:
Left early as im damn freak tired.
Back & K.O till th next day.

Its been so long i ever hit club :(
Damn it, i miss th bass & music that goes "BOOM BOOM BOOM" !
Blasts up th music & dance :D Ha!
Nah, but whenever i thought of th time i wanted to spend with Darling, th thought of clubbing fade.
Hms, nevermind (: Once Darling hit Eighteen, i gona go together with her & enjoy (:

Yea, Mum has been nagging non-stop almost everyday as im not working.
& this time round, i really have to work.
No matter how tough that i have spend lesser time with Darling, i still have to go on :(
Im been slacking for almost a year & i haven't been earning any single thing that can make my family feel proud, so i hope i can this time round (: Laziness ! Get lost !

10 more days to chalet (:
Im looking so forward to it.
& also a gathering to all my long-lost friends !

3more days to 11th months (:
Loved !

Okay, i guess i shall end my post here (:
Going to take my supper & turn in.
Ready for tmr interview ! Cheers !
Goodnights readers (:

--I wana dance under th moonlight till th sun shines.

2010-05-06T21:14:00.001+08:00

Loving You Became A Habit To Me ;

Hellos readers !
Im currently down with cough & slight fever which comes & go every now & then :x

Congrats to Ahwyn's ; Happy Discharge day !
Laughs. Wakeup in th morning & prepare.
Meetup with Darling, had our breakfast & head over to Wyn's place.
Accompanied her to Jurong for her haircut (:
Darling & I left off to JP.
Same old thing, we went to supermart (: LOL!
We did this everytime we went to a shopping mall. Looking for any supermart.
Late afternoon, cabbed back.
Darling cooked for me Duck porridge (: So sweet kan?!
Dinner settled (:
Send Darling off & now im back home !

Somehow, my timing turns another way round.
I wakeup in th morning & sleep at th earliest 10pm & latest 12midnight.
Cool right?!

Dearest PINGPING BABY !
2 days never see your fcuking face, i do miss you alot !
I know you miss me alot right?! LOL!
No matter where you're, you will always be my BABY !
Even you dunwan call me baby anymore, i still wan you :( Cries !
My birthday, you mus be th first to come okay?!
Who never come also nevermind, you MUST COME uhs :D
Hope tmr can see you, i love you much :D

DARLING BOY :)
If i ever have a superglue with me, i will definitely stick myself on you.
我这一辈子跟定你了 !!
You cant leave me for even one second, not looking at you for a minute.
I love your satisfaction today :)
You're my most sexiest hunk i wanted most !
Remember, you can never dump me off cause no matter where am i, i will huant you down !
My life with you are th most happening one, th most happiest thing i had.
I will be th one who never fails to irritate you every now & then.
I love seeing your angry face cause it looks so COOL :D
But, dun scold me anymore cause my tears are getting more & more expensive :/
I love you, understand?!

Okay, jus a short post for today uhs.
My eyes is turning off soon, so i shall end my post here (:
Nights Earthlings ~

--Seal you in my soul ; touch me in your heart.

2010-05-05T23:26:00.001+08:00

Everything I Do, Reminds Me Of You ;

Back blogging (:
Changed my blogskin & i spend hours browsing for a nice one :/
In th end, i jus pick a simple one & edit (:
Whether its nice or not doesnt really matter, as long i know i've done my best uhs :D

Stayed at home for th past few days.
Other than travelling all th way down to look for Darling, all i did was to stay at home.
Rotting, sleep, eat, highhigh.
Nothing else alrd :x
Wonder how long i wan this kind of life to go on?
I need to stable down. I need to achieve something but it seem im getting nothing.
Stressed die me :(

Written down at my blog to my Dearest Darling (:
All i had to say, is to say thankyou to you .
For all th efforts you put in, for all th plans you made.
Although you love to scold me when you're sleeping, calling me names & dint make me HIGH for almost a week[which i really cannot take it!] but, i still love you so much.
I miss you whenever i leave, i need your hug whenever i fall into sleep, i cried whenever wad you said affects me, i felt paranoid whenever you said something bad, i love when you said things that brighten up my day (:
Everything little things you do or said, it brings me alot of emotions & feelings.
Cause' i bet, you've alrd became part of me.
Something in my life which i can never lost.
Im looking so forward to our 11months Anni. (:

Okay, shall end my post here.
Haven fagged for like hours since i sat infront of my lappy :x LOL!
Gona turn it early after that.
Nights & loves (:

--Because you loved me ; My Love Never Dies.

2010-05-03T21:28:00.000+08:00

I Jus Want The Time To Stop ; With Jus You & Me.

Back to update with some random photos.
Some are damn overdue photos & some are freshly ones (: LOL!

01'May2010.
Slept at almost 5am th day before.
Wakeup at 8.30am. Prepared & off to Tongchuan's place.
Stayed there till around 11am, head over to Fajar's 大日子.
Th whether was like superb hot !
Slacked there till 1pm ; Yewkeng started (:
We were sweating like fcuk seriously.
Feeling irritated & hungry.
Darling & me went off halfway through.
Back to my place, changed & stuffs.
Time check its alrd 6p.m evening.
Bused all th way down to Downtown for Eileen's chalet (:
Super stuffy & hot there.
Overnight there but meanwhile, a major fight with Darling :x
Fight & ended up walking down to th nearest 7-eleven there to fill our stomach. Lmao !
Stayed all th way till next day morning, bused back home & K.O!

02'May2010.
Darling came over to look for me.
Slacked & went over to BPP together with Deping for dinner.
Darling went off with her's brother & i left with Deping.
Cabbed down to Boat quay after Fajar.
Drinking session @ 12Element.
Maine & her boyf came over aftermath.
Left there around 1am plus.
Cabbed back to BP, home to changed & cabbed down to Darling's place (:
Stayed over at Darling's place till early afternoon.
Wakeup & cabbed back over to my place.
Home to prepare then off i went over to meet Darling & her's bro together with his girlf.
We head down to CSC@Batok.
Pool session then lunch & westmall aftermath.
So much fun we had ! Enjoyed my day with them (:
Mos burger for dinner then home im (:

Birthday is jus 22days away.
Im not happy, this is for sure :(
I dislikes birthdays.

--Absence make our misses grow stronger .

2010-04-30T00:00:00.000+08:00

Let Me Be Your Private Dancer ;

Hellos Readers !
Suddenly got th urge to update my blog at this lonely night.
Im freaking tired but i cant get to sleep when i actually have to wakeup so early in th morning.

Yesterday ; 29'April.
Finally after like 248271 years, i met up with Hidayu'Cute2 (:
Miss her damn much !
Went down with Darling to collect her stuffs then we trained over to Penisular.
Brought Darlings "Boxers", laughs.
For my whole freaking day is to walk & walk, trained here & there :x Fcuk it!
Wait for Hidayu to come, we walked over to Marina Steps, chit-chat over there (:
Cool, we talked about everything, laugh over those past memories we used to had. Loved !
Then, all th way till evening, send Hidayu on cab.
Then, Darling & me trained all th way down from City Hall to Punggol. Superb far !
Went over to Joii's place for a night there.
Slept all th way till th next morning & fcuk, her dad wake us up to ask us out from th house.
So, packed & washup, left there.
Took our breakfast over at nearby mall, trained down to Hougang.
Walked here & there till th time is there.
Bused back to BP by a long long freaking long journey bus.
Alighted at somewhere near Bukit Timah, shopped th NTUC there (: Cool!
Night time, over to Tongchuan's place.
Sintua event :x
Nothing much to elaborate about it also. Dun wish to also.

My eyes is closing down soon.
But still, i cant get to sleep :(
Im seriously tired.
& tmr would be a damn fcuk tiring day for me.
Gotta go for Yewkeng in th morning, rushed over to Eileen's chalet aftermath.

Miss Darling so much :(
Without her by my side, im really getting not used to it.
Sighs, hopefully this time round, wad her's mum friends said are true.
Cause once bitten ; twice shy.
Hard for me to ever trust them anymore.

Okay. Shall end my post here for today (:
Catch up for more, readers !
Goodnights Earthlings ~

-My life could be better if i learn to fight myself.

2010-04-26T00:00:00.000+08:00

Currently back to my own place.
Cant sleep at all till now. Damn it !

Staying over at Darling place for almost to 2weeks, till today.
By right, she should be back to surrender after dinner.
But unexpectedly, she ran off & leaving us with her parents & her parents friends.
But, indeed her mum is over protective eh.
She locked us in th house th whole day, clashing all th things with us & keep doing things that are unbearable. Fcuk it !
But, mayb things would get better later on.
Shan't elaborate so much here (:

Few days back, movie & movie with Darling.
Watched "Fire Or Conscience" ; Rated : 5/5**
Its a freaking nice movie that you dun ever wana missed it !
& watched "Ice Kacang Puppy Love" ; Rated ; 3/5**
I actually fall asleep while watching but in fact, its a entertaining show.
Enjoyed my days with Darling really loads.
Hope our life ahead could be much more better even now, idk where you are.

Soon, i will leave my house.
Get me out from this hell !
My mum is totally outrageous that makes me mad at her.
She can fcuk me here & there & once she need someone to actually accompanied her to somewhere, sweet talks will be said.
Mayb i should really get a life on my own instead having to bother about her.

My life, i wan it.
No matter wad is happening next, i gona accept it (:

Darling, no matter where you are now. Always remember i will standby you. Be there for you whenever you need me (: I love you, now & always. I dun care even if my mum know about us, i jus wan you to know. Im willing to spend my lifetime with you going thru hard times & th better ones.

-Th power of love is when you feel th touch in your heart (:

2010-04-22T13:35:00.002+08:00

One Last Night ; & You'll Be Gone :(

Hello People !

Staying over at Darling place for this one whole week.

Time flies fast & today is th last day i can ever spend my whole night with her & to sleep.

Tmr onwards, i'll have to sleep alone, eat alone, jus everything i do, ALONE :(

Im so eager to see wad she wrote for me, but Darling dun allowed .

Th truth indeed hurt so much & time always seem th most cruelty thing in earth.

Jus when we wan th time to go slow, it will always goes against it & turn fast but when we realised we need time to heal, th time will always go slow. Fcuk it !

I actually decided to give up jus few days ago dueto a quarrel with Darling.

Lies & stuffs bcus of her friends, i know im selfish .

Still, i cant let go, i love her ; Thats all (:

Days spend with her is great !

Darling pampered me like a baby (:

Although there's conflicts here & there but still, she never failed to make me smile.

Life is full of ups & downs.

I believe after Darling's gone, my down period would stayed for longer time.

I hope i wont breakdown infront of her cus i dunwan a see her cry too.

Yes, my determination will turned me on (:

Haven really been to any places anywhere.

Even if i do, i cant recalled.

LOL! Im having STM recently.

But i know we had a great night yesterday, highhigh time ! Cool !

& tonight will be going down back to BP for Sintua's event.

So i bet it's a great night tonight yea :D

Darling, my life is yours; nothing else.

You'll be kept in my heart till i leave this realistic world.

I need you so much.

6months will be fast ; i believe.

Stay strong & overcome this once more.

You're my lifetime soulmate (:

2010-04-18T21:22:00.000+08:00

Cries :( Today update gona be a sad one .
Firstly, Darling is going back to surrender on Friday.
Idk if i should be feeling upset or happy.
Im upset cause she will be gone for another 6months, which means i have to survive alone again.
Happy because im glad that she left with jus 6months & so when she's out, we can lead a better life without any worries (:
But, afterall, i know i will cried days after nights again :(

Having Darling by my side for this 2months.
Indeed, we gone thru alot.
We quarreled, we fight, we argue, we laugh, we cried.
Everyday when i first open my eyes, i see her.
Everynight before i close my eyes, its also her.
But, after she go back, im back to alone & all i had th memories held on is jus photos.
Once she's back, i can never hear her voice for 6months, feel her touch, hold her hands, whispered into her ears.
Although i've been thru one time waiting for 7months but, this time round, i swear im so used to having her to hug me to sleep & pampered me :(
No one would ever torelate my temper, my fcukup attitude anymore .
No one make me high like no one does, no one highhigh with me too.
I believe this time round, its another obstacle we have to face.
So, im gotta keep this love strong & keep up to all our unfulfilled promised to wait till she's out.
Darling, always remember that im waiting out there without any lies.
& always know that i only love you ; th only one i wanted so much (:

Back to my update.
As usual, today Sunday, meetup with Mum in th noon.
Went over to BPP, have lunch & walk walk.
Back home aftermath (:
Yesterday was cool ! Went up cemetery .
Till late night duh :x But, i enjoyed (:

I cant stand pple who despised lesbians, look down on pple like one shit.
Take things for granted.
I guess once you know someone long, all their true colors will be out.
But, forget it (:
I dun ever put myself like their standard .
So wad if they got so much authority than us?!
You're jus one damn piece of shit in my eyes.
At least i fcuking know that im not someone who talk big & bitched behind pple's back (:

Okay, shall end here.
Gona update soon (: Loved !

2010-04-15T23:47:00.000+08:00

Above photos are taken last week (:
Isn't awesome?! Its damn cool !

I guess my blog are growing webs & maggots that readers might be bored reading it.
So, i shall post a long one to make it happening (:

Few days back, i get myself into some little fun that makes me totally pissed off with those stuffs.
I cant sleep for th whole day after it.
I swear, that would be my last !
No more highhigh for me anymore !
Im old enough to stop & think of getting myself stable instead of going on with it.

My daily routine are still th same.
Nothing other than sleep, slack, eat & craps everyday.
I do enjoyed my life being simple but still, i know i need to get myself a job asap.

Mum & mine relationship are much more better than before.
At least now she understand & allow me to stay out overnight alternatively. Great !
Hope everything can get better than before.

Darling & mine relationship?
Our 10th months had jus passed & its still counting on (:
Sometimes, i feel that im not better enough for her at all.
During our 10th month, we actually quarreled :(
I admit im being over sensitive but idk how to express other than venting my anger at her.
I cant leave her at any moment.
Even i would to go home, i would miss her like so freaking much.
Jus like this morning, while sleeping, i got a nightmare that involved her.
I immediately got shocked & wokeup & called her.
Sighs, i dun denied i get paranoid easily.
She's so much different from anyone.
She show me how much she loves me, pampered me, dote on me.
Only she know me best, share my burdens.
Bring me thru every little pains.
I swear, i do loves her & i need her.
Even if one day, she's gone for that 6months, i promised & i dun mind waiting for once more.
Jus to keep this love strong & never fall.
DSXY ; you're my lifetime promise (:

Birthday next month, wonder how should i celebrate?!
Readers, any suggestions?!
I wan club but ... i start to get lazy for club alrd :(
I wan to go for everything that's fun but ... wad stuffs would make perfect?

Okay, gona turn in early tonight (:
Nights Earthlings !

2010-04-10T00:00:00.000+08:00

SINTUA EVENT ;

Missing from my blog for days & im back (:
No events for th past few days.

Today out for sintua event.
Cool !
Saw girls who "tiao dang" (: Superb !
Besides that, everyday we're doing th same thing over & over again. Sian :/

Had a big quarreled with my Mum few days back.
I make myself moved out of my place & tell myself to live on.
Till today, Mum called & obviously i won :D Haas.
So, ended up everything's alright alrd (:
Hms, tmr i'll be going home to stay & after that, i'll be out again. LOL!

My BABY Deping is back alrd (: Cool !
I love her so much, miss her more uhs.
She brought me COW SOCKS ! Loved .
She surprised us on friday which she told us she will be back on sunday.
Kns, damn fcuk happy to see her fcuking face . LOL!

I love Darling so much :D
Our relationship is getting stronger & deeper but sometimes we still have attitde towards each other but i trust that we'll make it (:
I love th way you get high & high :D LOL!

2010-04-01T18:37:00.000+08:00

Finally, after neglecting my blog for like weeks?
Im back here to update (:

Seriously, there's nothing to update about too.
My daily soutine is still th same :(
Jus that, too much things happened out of th sudden.
& it make me cant even recalled wad's actually going on.

Police came up my place few days back to look for Darling.
But she was not there. Too bad for those bloody shoot kias :D
You jus cant catch me !

Then, back yesterday, meetup with Darling's Mum for a talk.
Okay, things are getting quite better as th whole picture finally make me realised that, th problem lies with Darling's dad.
But, this is part of their family stuffs, i shouldnt elaborate too much on it too.

Haven been home for 4 nights, i guess?
Running about, everywhere in Singapore.
I bet i looked like a Zombie now . LOL!
Firstly, i dun get enough sleep at all.
I've been sleeping on floors & mattress thru out.
So long since after i get to fall asleep on my beautiful sweety bed ~
Hopefully, all these are worthwhile for wad i've done (:

Darling, i jus wan you to know.
No matter this path we're walking on will turn out to be worse or better, i will stand by you.
Yes, i admit sometimes my attitude sucks, that's because i dunwan anything to happen to you cause im really worried.
I love you, i always do (:

2010-03-20T15:28:00.000+08:00

Actually got nothing to update about but due to my boredom, decided to blog till its time to prepare & out i go (:
Darling now sleeping like one pig & leave me alone :(
Gona post my update fast fast if not when she's awake & saw im not yet ready, she will kill me for sure . LOL!

So no life manzxz :/
This is wad i do everyday with Darling.

Eat
Sleep
Slacked
Highhigh
Lappy noob

Cool right? Bored die me :/
But, Monday im going for interview together with Darling (:
Hopefully we can get th same job together & i can see her spider face everyday ! LOL!

Get to know this news in th afternoon when i wokeup today.
Jasmine'LYP ; my beloved sister was being sentenced on th 11th to RTC for either 18months to 3years.
When i know it, i almost cried out :(
I know i had to accept th fact that she would go in soon or later but its jus too sudden.
She told me she would be out for court & most probably everything would be alrights but ended up, it turned out another way :(
Get to know she was drenched for straight 3days under th rain, i was so upset.
Why she she be only th one ended up in there yet all her others friends get so light sentence?
It totally damn too unfair !
Sighs, but another way i think, its also a lesson for her to learn.
I hope she change when she's out after years.
I hope she understand th purpose in life & move on well in future instead of leading on those life she lead in th past.
We used to go thru thick & thin ; weals & woes.
& now, i promise, i will wait for you (:
Till you're out, i will never forget that i had you, as my beloved sis who gone thru so much with me thru'out these years.
I want to see a different you, a changed person.
A better lady with goals in life.
Make your family proud cause i know you can !
No matter wad, i kept our memories in my heart & wait for you to be out to create great memories for both of us again & of course, not forgotten, your Mei2 ; Jane (:

Darlingg wont be with me this weekend :( Bored die me !
I gotta find things to occupied me manzxz.
Anyone, out with me?!
No clubs or discos or drinking session uhs.
I dunwana get drunk & create troubles for myself .

Okay, gotta get off to prepare now before Darling nag, nag, nag :D
Byeeeee ~ Readers ! Cheers (:

2010-03-18T23:20:00.000+08:00

Shersher says HELLOS :D !

Wokeup in th morning, prepared & bused down to Aub's place for highhigh session (:
Shioke ! Rest & left Aub's place at around 3p.m plus.
Bused down to Vivo together with Dearest, Aub & Rin & meetup with Pingping over there.
Rushed over to GV, get our tickets & watched "KIDNAPPER" Rated : 4/5**
Nice one ! Worth to be watched :) Exciting & unexceptable ! Cool !
After movie, slacked awhile then bused home aftermath (:

Highhigh is great (:
But, i cant do it everyday :( My body is getting weaker as time goes by ~ Damn it !
But im trying to let it off bit by bit.
I cant let myself get into all these when im alrd almost 19 ! Gosh !

Things dun seem to be wad pple is saying & commenting about anymore (:
Dearest & mine r/s is getting better.
Understanding & trust has strongly improved .
So, i gona treasure wad i had now.

& Pingping really know me well (:
She can see thru my eyes & know wad i wan & said.
Love her more & more.
Especially when i see her fcuking face :D LOL!

2010-03-17T17:04:00.000+08:00

FCUK TH WORLD :) !
Neglected my blog for at least a week i bet? LOL!
Im going mad.
Cant really recalled wad i've been doing for these days.
Boringgg & boringgg :(
Jus a random post to keep my blog alive :D

Anw, Dearest & I patch things up alrd.
This time no more fights, or even till th world collaspe. LOL!

Pple out there, no matter wad.
I know wad im doing, so please i appreciate your blessings but keep those unwanted comments to yourself !

Byyyyyyyeeeeeee ~ See me soon (:

2010-03-10T00:00:00.001+08:00

Thanks for all, my dear boy.

14062009 ; Th day when i thought everything was perfect.
But, it all ended jus bcus it was all to late.
It left me a deep wound & full of regrets & thoughts.
Maybe its all my fault, shouldnt had treat you that bad in th past.
I guess, everyone deserves a second chance, but i dun.
Cause i left you sucha big impact that you can never forget.
Should i apologised for wad i've done or jus let it be?
There's no wrong or right, but still, i know deep down, i cant let go.
Mayb i will curse like i never did, hate like nobody business.
But, deep in my heart, i know, other than running away from reality, all i can do, is to stand alone.
I know you will never come back, i know you would leave forever.

From now, i have to stand by alone all by myself.
Getting back my old ways to avoid everything.
Getting myself drunk alomst every night.
Maybe this would make me feel better.
Even if i die, you would never come back.
But, i wont (:
Maybe your life without me, would be much more perfect.
Finally, you're free from a struggle you're holding on to for this 8 months.
& i bet, you mus be thankful to your heartless.

Once again, i gotta thankyou for being sucha torelance boyf in th past.
For doing so much things for me but yet, i appreciate when i know you gotta leave.

Idk wad am i to you now, but i hope you know, understand one day that i had never once given up on you before.
& i'll wait, i promise.
Idk if you would get to read this post but this is jus wad i wanted to said.

I tried to mend things back when i know your feelings had fade.
& its been washed down th drain.
I dun blame you, but i blame myself.
Mayb in th first place, i should leave you for good.
Instead of holding on & thought everything's gona be fine.

But now, i truly understand, th meaning of love & hurt.
I would never get into a relationship anymore.
Even if i would too, that would only be jus to keep you outta my mind.

& now, shersher's finally believe "wad's goes around, comes around"
KARMA ; its true.
Th way i treat you is how you treat me now.

From this moment, i know that is hard for me to move on but i gona try my very best & at th same time, i would be waiting .
Cause even if you wont be back, i know i've played my part once (:

Everything i hope is to deserves a second chance, but i know this would never happen, not anymore :(

2010-03-08T18:21:00.000+08:00

& Its Still The Same :(

Boringgggg ~
I sick & tired, boring till death !

Somehow, i jus feel like going off alone to nowhere.
Till now, its still th same.
No matter how much i do, you still wont get to know.
Appreciate? Fcuk it!

2010-03-05T16:49:00.000+08:00

DALANG ! Shersher's BACK IN TOWN :D !
Sorry readers for my infrequent update.
Due to my laziness & busy, im kinda mixed up my plans every now & then.
Laughs, for wad i've been doing is to sleep only in th morning, which means when th sun comes out, im asleep (: Ha!
Then, to go for drinking session only when Dearest is not with me. Lol.
But, for th past few days, im not feeling that well, so instead of going anywhere, i mostly stays at home till night then out to meet Blood to slack & supper.
Thats all.
Yesterday was a miracle ! I ran all th way down to Tamp1 :D ! *Claps For Me*
Went down to look for Aubreyk & co.
Had mahjong session at my place.
Till morning, when th sun arises, then off i go to my LALAS ~ Land (:

For my previous post, readers, you guys can jus ignore about it.
Lol, im going crazy over it.
Patched things up with Dearest & im really happy over it (:
At least all my efforts & changes dint washed down th drain eh.
Sometimes, im really afraid that jus one quarrel could make our relationship dies.
But, im trying to avoid any conflicts cause to me, Dearest is way too much important to me.
Can you readers jus fcuking imagine how much in love im with Dearest?!
Those my friends & loved ones being there with me thru out almost everyday should know that this is like my first time ever so crazy over a person. Laughs.
But, afterall, i still love Dearest more than anything lar :)
But, when i hate her, i seriously do (Guys, it wont last for even one minute.) LOL!

Anw, afterall, i have to be thankful to all my babies who stand by me thru out when im down.
& now, your name is mentioned ; NGPOHYING :D
Also, W.DEPING, Alot & alot :D
I love you guys lar :D

2010-03-01T16:56:00.000+08:00

IM NUMB OF EVERYTHING :(
IT DOESNT MATTER TO ME ANYMORE !

We used to be together everyday.
Spending our time to th fullest.
As times goes by, things changed, you lead your own life which i dun seem important in your life anymore :(
I tried hard to mend things back but im th only one putting in every efforts mend back every little things. & you, without even a thought of me. Jus go on with your life.
You used to said you wont changed even if i do, but you did.
Everything you said in th past, i know its jus lies.
I shall let it fade itself better than killing myself deep inside.
I dunwan my life to be ruined by you.
But, you alrd did.
You said everything is different now & i gona accept this fact that both of us are changing.
& i will change, this is wad you wan.
I do loves you, so deeply.
Do even loves till i begged & cried.
But, i swear, its gona be different.
I wont ever shed a tear for you now or later.
I wont put in any efforts to mend things back. Jus let it be.
I would do wadever i like without having a thought for you.
I would go on with my life till i forget about you, till a fullstop came in between us.

2010-02-28T18:19:00.000+08:00

Lovely Earthlings :D
Firstly to announce that i quit my job in St.james :(
Dun asked me why, i jus dunwan it anymore.
Either to Suncity for interview or Kbox.
But, Dearest do hate me for working at such places like Suncity :( Sighs.

Few days back, a BIG quarrel with Dearest.
This time round, i know im in th wrong.
& i swear ! Her words do hit me off & hurt me deep down.
Things goes worst that she told me her feelings lessen & this relationship doesnt seem much important to her anymore.
Yes, i dun denied, im in th wrong. But, everyone deserves a second chance kan?
We talked things out & i changed for th sake of this love that i dunwan to end.
& i prayed that we will stay on this way even though i know its coming to an end :(
我已经不敢再期望或盼望我们的未来。
因为，你已经慢慢的从我身边离去。
Im sorry for my wrongdoings, for treating you this way in th past.
I begged for forgiveness but i dunwan any sympathetic from you.

2010-02-25T06:26:00.000+08:00

CURRENTLY AT MY BLOODY PLACE (:

Cool ! My blog is damn damn rot for these whole week . Lol.
Sorry readers, due to busy & lazy :(
Im drunk continuously for one week & i been staying out for this three fcuking days . Haas!
Shall starting rewinding my life ~

19'Feb.
JONAS'LAOPA OFFICIALLY 18th BIRTHDAY (:
Trained down to get my letter from Denz & meetup with Jonas friends at City Hall.
Celebrate this & that, surprise for him & everything goes well.
Went down to Golden Mile for drinking session & J-Dee.
Played 5-10 with th guys & eventually i lost almost every round so non-stop drinking till i get super drunk.
I bet some of them watched th video of my drunk crazyness act which Meibao took it down.
Laughs, i swear ! I totally dk wad am i doing.
Deping, Meibao & Seng came down fetched me back to bp when i dun even know wad's going on. Ha! Then, when im awake, off to Tongchuan's place for poker session.
Won alot :D Super high !
& home (

20'Feb.
Went down SunCity again after been to one of th sintua.
Then, drink again (:
Together with Deping, Tong & Wei.
Laughs. had Mac's after closing & some conflicts occurs.
Ended & Wei's friends brought us to Neverland (: Shioke !
Drunk again :( & i got super hangover th next day.
Non-stop vomitting session, lol.

21'Feb.
Out of sudden, recieved a call from Hubby.
She's out & i was so damn shocked !
So meet her up at Celmenti together with Aubreyk.
Lol, slacked & stuffs.
After that, things i dun wish to elaborate much but all i can say is Hubby's parents is jus so fcuked up ! They are worse than any parents i eveer met !
I can kill them if i could :D Arrgh !

Other that that, this few days, besides slacking, drinking.
Nothing got me better to do anything :(
Im jus bored of life cause it's never th same anymore.
Fcuk up life !

Work? Getting sick & tired to go work anymore.
Trying to get a new job asap but im jus lazy again.
Mayb i get to enjoy for too fcuking long till i rot & my lazyness all came back :(

BUCK UP, AHSHER :D

So touching am i :)
Brought dinner up for my bloody, haha.

2010-02-17T16:10:00.000+08:00

Cheers to th lovely earthlings ~ !
I knew i neglect my blog for like days.
So, im going to rewind for th past few days (:
Anw, there's some photos taken but due to th blogger problem, gona wait till next post & i shall upload all (:

13'Feb.
Wakeup early morning after receiving Dearest's call.
Had a little quarreled with her due to her mum :( Fcukup !
After that, meetup with Xiaogerl & Joii at BP, bused down together to Eunos to meetup with Dearest. Slacked there while waiting for Jonas & Vion.
Head down to Aljunied Mac, meetup with Jasmine (: So happy to see her !
Spend time with Dearest & cabbed off together, send Dearest back & i head off to BP, grandpa's place for Reunion Dinner.

14'Feb.
HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY & HAPPY 8th MONTH ANNI TO DEAREST :D
Gathering with th girls @ Hougang Mall.
Meetup with Dearest & Maine at AMK hub.
Maine come fetched me & bring me to look for Dearest.
Saw Dearest brought th Couple Ring (: So much appreciated !
3 of us cabbed down to Hougang Mall.
Met up with th girls.
Xiaojia, Val&her boyf, Rin, Denz, Jonas&Vion, Xiaogerl, Joii, Mb&Winnie, Maine, Dearest.
Dun really remember got who ler :( STM eh. LOL!
So, we went Pak-pool session with all of them.
Some left early & Aubreyk came later on. Shioke !
Send Dearest off & we off to sing at Kbox.
I left early, cabbed off to fetch Blood, then had Mac's at BPP for dinner & walked to Tongchuan's place for cards gaming (: My luck was great ! I won quite alot. Haas !
Went home aftermath.

15'Feb.
Sort of Couple date (:
Dearest meet me up at my place downstairs.
We wore th Couple tee i brought, nice one !
We bused down together to Vivo.
Wait for Jonas&Vion.
Had Asian Kitchen for lunch (: Thumbups !
Walked around & went to th sky bridge near th sea, slacked there.
Spend th most memorable day with Dearest (:
Send them all back & i bused back alone back to BP.
Waited for Dearest call but sadly, she dint called :(
Went home, then went out with Mummy to CSC.
Meetup with Ahtong awhile & head down to SunCity@Tama Jurong with Mum& her friends.
Deping came later. Drink & drunk ~

16'Feb.
Head down to Turf club together with Blood&co.
After that, went down to Club Alantis@Arena, Jurong.
Sing & drink there.
Going crazy there :D Fun !
Left there, cabbed down to SunCity once again.
Meetup with Deping.
Dance, dance, dance !
Ahwei came awhile.
Head home aftermath.
Im going drunk for straight 2days ~ Shioke !

--25days to go~
Once again, im counting down for your next outing.
Dearest, i need you more than anything else.
I love you so ~
No matter wad, i'll stand by you.
I swear that i'll love you like never before (:

2010-02-12T17:30:00.000+08:00

Im seeing sparks in my life :D !

Hellos Earthlings !
Actually i got nothing to update on but i jus feel like updating my blog.
& time flies fast, tmr is CNY eve (:
I got no proper planning of wad am i going to do during CNY?
As DSXY is coming out, my whole mind is to accompany her.
But, but, but, during night? I cant be probably at home :( It will kill me manzx !
Wanted to go for some drinking session but who gona accompany me? Damn it !
I only know for one important thing is that i need to go pray during th first day of CNY which is on th 14th.
Can someone jus suggest me wad to do? Sian 1/2 ~

Gathering supposed to be cancelled yesterday & im disappointed.
Everyone give fcukup excuses that they cant make it.
& now? Telling me they still want to meetup.
_!_ Yea, i dun have th heart anymore for any plans to it cause my efforts are washed down.

But, th only plan i had is to meetup with Winnie'81&Meibao'baobei to celebrate Valentine's together. But, idk if DSXY mind not :(
Then, also with TOP SECRET person which i dunwana mention here.
We gona enjoy together with th cliques. Ha!
& obviously, Deping eh. Shall jio her out for drinking session ~

My manager suddenly split personality sey.
Give me OFF on saturday which is tmr.
Haas, great (: Then i can have more sleep.

Okay, i guess i stop here as i gotta prepare for work soon.
See you guys (:

--24hours to go ~
Hope th time spend with you could slow down.
Bloody ass you ~

2010-02-11T14:58:00.000+08:00

Good Afternoon, Earthlings :D !

Yesterday ; 10'feb.
Shopping spree for me again :D
Supposed to meetup with Teresa but she went off to Town early afternoon when im still sleeping.
& till 3p.m plus, Awaken by Deping's call.
Pestered me to get prepared & stuffs.
So, wakeup, prepared, eat, this & that.
Meetup with Deping & cabbed over to Woodlands@Civic Centre.
Deping went for her medical checkup.
Finshed & cabbed back to BP.
She went to see doctor.
All these checkups & doctor spend us almost half a day :(
Meetup with Ahneh aftermath.
Cabbed down to Bugis.
Cheers ! Shopping time :D
Intend only to spend Ahneh's treat on bag but ended up, i spend him almost $100.
Lol, brought a bag;$35 , 2hot pants;$20 , 1leggings;$10 , a bear;$25 plus all th dinner he paid.
Laughs, meetup with Ahneh's sister&co.
We went seperate ways as Deping & me wanted to get Valentine's day gift.
Ended up, we brought 2couples tee & th best part is we brought th same. Cause me $36.
But, its worthwhile :D
So reached home around 11p.m.
Super tiring ~

Cant wait for CNY & Valentine's day manxz :)
Gathering with th girls & time spend with my DSXY.
Wow, shioke !

--2more days ~
I miss you, my beloved DSXY (:

2010-02-09T17:58:00.001+08:00

Arrgh :/ Blogger make me fed up !
Cant post up any pictures. Wth !
Forget it.

Today is a day which kinda pissed me off ~
Wakeup early morning for my Class.
& jus when i board th bus, otw to St.james.
My manager text and told me not to come as im working tonight.
Laughs, luckily i was only at Upper Bukit Timah, if not, i will cried for my whole life :D
So, went back home & continue my beautiful sleep ~

After yesterday issue, make me learnt alot from it.
I learnt th importance of friendship & bonding between each other.
Well, shall not elaborate so much as its a top secret (:
But, thru these, it hits my mind strongly & believe that things will turned out better if only we tried (:
Understanding & listening is th most important thing in friendship, once you lose it, you get nothing back. So, trust me readers (: Once you accept someone as your bff, you got to show th love of it. & soon, you will feel th bonding of happiness between each other (:

Yea, shall get prepare now.
Going out a little while & off i go to work.
Be back soon to update, readers (:

--4days to go ~
Love, im missing you every now & then (:
You're th only one that worth my love.
Lalalas ~ Im crazy !

2010-02-07T21:34:00.000+08:00

&& I Can Never Resists The Love You Gave. My Sweetest Love (:

Fcuk th blogger ! Something going wrong again :/
Currently Brother, Sis inlaw & Bro's cliques are at my place.
We're having early Reunion dinner (:

Went out to Bugis together with Guoping&Ahneh.
Shopping spree today but sad to said, nothing caught my eyes :(
Wth, in th end, i brought jus one flip flop for myself & Mum's heels.
Bused back to BPP aftermath.
Had MOS burger for lunch (:
So, walked around & spotted 2 two tops (:
Thanks to Guoping, he paid for it.
Then, walked home.

Next week would be a tiring day for me :(
My manager is so funny can?
He put me to class on th 9feb, which is Tuesday.
11am to 7pm & know wad? He put me work at 10pm. Wth ?!
Thats mean, i wont get to sleep much.
But, at least okay, weekdays wont be crowded or packed. Phew ~
&& glad that i dun have to work on first day of CNY :D
Great ! I have time to spend with DSXY (:

Hopefully this job would last me till long ~
I love this job even though it sucks sometimes. Ha!
But, great time with colleagues there (:

I wana get inked but my mum nagged when i told her about it :( Wth.
Brother also wana get inked too. LOL!
So, we gona planned and go for it together :D Cheers !

Sometimes i dun understand lar dey.
Said to pple as if you're so pitiful.
Please, stop acting as if you're in no wrong !
It will only make me hate you more (:
No friend? You caused this !
Stop, stop, stop coming to my blog !
Sickening ~

--6days to go ~
Love, its fast lar.
Our 8months plus Valentine's (:
It gona be something great, my dear.
I love you (:

2010-02-04T21:09:00.000+08:00

Hellos Earthlinggggggs :D !
Busy working now but i wont neglect my blog alrights?!

Went out with Jonas today.
Bused down to PS first, then to Chinatown (:
Its a secret why we went Chinatown but it really make me laughed th whole day.
Jus a short outing for today as i have to store up my energy for tmr work (:

Sad to said, i have to work on CNY :(
No time to spend with DSXY. Fcuk it!
I will get my ways out, cheers !

Enjoyed working although its like so tiring standing th whole night :(
But, everytime i tell myself, i gotta bucked up for it & earn for wad i wan.
A good experience for me there :D & th best part is PEEPS THERE ARE GREAT :D!
They're mature enough compared to some others freaks. LOL!

Now, i wouldnt even think that outside world is bad actually.
Better than bitches who're still so immature.
How should i put it in words? Oh yar, no guts to face th music. LOL!
These pple are LOSERS :/ Ha!

Have to turn in tonight early.
If not, i wont get enough energy to work and chiong for it (:

Anw, peeps out there!
No clubbing for me on CNY anymore.
Had to go only on th 20th onwards ~ Who wana tag along?
I wan more & more pple :D

--9days to go ~
Love, i hope & hope that i can spend more time with you on CNY (:
Please, i beg for it manzxz :(

2010-02-02T22:33:00.001+08:00

Wad a havoc-tic day !

Had so much fun last night at Jab1@BQ :D !
It was Sebast & Yx Birthday!
I went over to get presents for them & bused down to Bingxin's place.
Accompanied Bingxin back home to change & doll up.
Both of us make th guys wait for us like almost for hours? Laughs.
Finally, i wore my super damn high heels last night !
It was gorgeous manzxz :D ! But, my legs is aching seriously :(
LOL! Walked down to 259, met up with Sebast&co.
Cabbed down to BQ straight.
Had my dinner there & went in to Jab1 after fagging.
Saw Shuling there too (:
So, drinking session starts !
So many pple & th whole place is fully booked by Ben. Sebast's friend.
Had some high-high time there also.
& i was fcuking drunk !
I know wad im doing but i cant controlled wad im saying. Stupid me =X
I realised when i wokeup that i actually called Winnie&Mb, Aubrey & so much more.
Th feeling is great ! Shioke :D !
Enjoyed myself with them (: Cheers !

So, th best part, im having serious hangover this morning :(
I slept for like less than 4hours & i have to bloody hell dragged myself outta th bed.
Get myself to prepare & bused over to St.james.
I was late. Supposed to reached at 11a.m yet i reached only at 1130a.m :( But, luckily, my manager is great (:
Good one is that th class is not bored at all, it turned out to be so interesting & fun !
Enjoyed myself laughing all along th class :D Ha!
Class ended at around 6p.m.
Meetup with Aubreyk for a little while to give him suggestions of wad to gave to her lover (: LOL!
Then, send him to work & off i bused back to BP.
Alighted at 117, had my dinner there together with Deping & home im now (:

HEY, GET THIS INTO YOUR DEEP HEAD LAR DEY !
No one asked you to fcuking visit my blog & fcuking read wad i wrote too.
Lol, and fyi, i dint even spilled any single fcuking things to anyone for NOW !
You're indeed a idiot. Glad that you know now eh.
& please, dun tio siol of who im fcuking saying about understand? Small kid?!
Readers, see with your own eyes? Did i fcuking bitched her behind?
Im stating th fcuking facts darling !
Accused? When did i? Oh, i dint know th meaning of "accused" is used this way? LOL!
Oh, do i have many BFF? I bet i only had a few & th best is whoever (used to be.)
But for now, i bet i have one, th one who would never treat me in this bloody hell fcuking way.
So, now i know, next time i shall treat my BFF this way.

BFF : Girl, im down now, can you come over to accompany me?
Me : For wad? You also got other friends, 少我一个不会死的啦!

Nice right? Eh, please fcuking get th facts rights lar.
Everyone is fcuking fake understand? LAME !
Oh god, i feel that im making a fool outta myself to have YOU YOU YOU as my fcuking friend.
PLEASE DUN FCUKING TIO SIOL!
Dun fcuking visit my blog, do remember & get this into your fcuking head, your IP code isnt fake !!
& Last of all, please dun fcuking copy my words & turned it into your own phrase.
This show you dun even fcuking have your own creativity. LOL!
Your english seriously make me LAUGH!

Great, i gotta work tmr again :)
Tired but im enduring due to my first pay.
Coming on th 10th babe ! Woos ~
Im going clubbing on th 15th, anyone wana tag along?
Damn, i dunwan to go alone or jus a few. I will bored die =X
& im used to saying fcuk here & there. LOL!
&&&& CNY is jus round th corner guys ! Cheers :D

Gathering so soon again.
Looking forward manzxz !
Girls, i miss you babes :D !

--11days to go~
Love, i miss you understand?

2010-02-01T15:17:00.000+08:00

Good Afternoon Earthlings :D !
My energy had drop all th way to ZERO :( Im fcuking tired!

I had been busy working & thats why i dint update my blog.
Especially on th friday & saturday.
You can never imagine th crowd even in Bellini Room.
& compared to, if i work in PH, i think i will die. Lol.
Days goes by, life is much more easy for me there.
Get to know more peeps there & they're friendly (:
Im seriously like a blur sotong, cause im still so unfamiliar with stuffs there.
Im trying hard to catch up, seriously.
Hope things will get better for me please !

Today dint managed to wakeup for my course which my manager puts me to attend.
Yesterday i get to sleep th whole day long, till night, i wokeup & i cant get back to sleep.
So, talked with Jonas on th phone till morning & i get to sleep.
But, sadly, i still cant wakeup :(
But, even if i can, im not supposed to get outta my house till 5pm.
As there're buyer coming up to view my place.

& i hope i will not get drunk tonight :D
Will be going to BQ tonight for Sebast & Yx Birthday (:
So, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO THEM !
Shall enjoy tonight uhs.

My life seem better off without a friend that i jus lose (:
I used to think that i cant afford to lose her.
But for now i think, i dun give a single damn on this kind of sucky friend.
LOL! I still think back that i jus pity on her lar.
So many of my other friends told me that im sucha fool to trust her, not like wad she said that im a fool to trust pple.
Now i know that im really a fool to pity on a sucha friend like YOU !

To : B.F.F Eighty one (:
I know wad you mean, dun worry alrights?
I know wad im doing & remember im doing for you & mb sake.
If not, i dun give a damned either.
You should know me right?
I can forgive but i'll never forget.
Now, its for you guys sake.
Trust me, dun ever let me know she's making you guys sucks, i will pay her double.
I love you lar (:

--12days to go ~
Love, its fast.
Im gona see you again.
This time round, i bet our time spend is definitely much more that th last one.
Im trying hard to hold on, to prove to you every miracle make.
I dun care wad pple said, cause you're my one & only that i yearns for.
You're so different, i love you (:

2010-01-28T23:25:00.000+08:00

& Best Friends Are Usually Your Biggest Enemy.

Yesterday ; 27'January.
Okay, its my first day of work.
Im like a idiot there, seriously.
Cause im so unfamiliar with almost everything :(
Peeps there are not bad actually.
There's friendly ones & unfriendly ones.
Yea, i cant expect more as im new there (:
Went to almost all th outlets over there.
Woos ~ PowerHouse is GREAT ! Im not kidding :D
Im going there as long i get my pay manzxz !
Dun have alot of guests so i dint managed to learn alot.
But, i learn how to serve a Champange in a right way (:
& also some other stuffs i need to know.
Stand for almost 8hours :( I can die seriously !
So tiring, my legs are like killing me but im learning to endure (:
Cheers for me guys :D ! I wan this job of mine to last !
I MUS OVERCOME EVERY SINGLE THING !

I PROUDLY ANNOUNCE THAT XIAOER IS NO LONGER MY BFF :D
I bet readers would be shocked to see this right?
Lol, i had enough seriously.
Im supposed that your best friend should be there when you are sad & needed someone you trust most here with you right?
Ha! & guys, you know wad?
During th day when i found out Love's incident, my mood was totally DOWN !
I went over to Bangkit, called her & she was LAZY ! !@#$%^ :/
Can you guys imagine?
Jonas, jus a good friend of mine? Travel all th way from Jalan Kayu to BP without a word after knowing this?
& my own BEST FRIEND? Telling me on th phone that she was lazy & loads of excuses.
I was so fcuking upset & she shown nothing at all.
When she were down, sad, troubled, wanted someone to be there.
I was never once fail to be there alrights?!
No matter how lazy am i to even step off my place.
I still accompanied her out to cool down.
& i get this in return.
Lol, so jollywell delete me outta of fb, friendster, msn or wadever shit.
Seriously, i dun give a damn !
Go on and nag about me, bitch about me behind my back, jus go ahead (:
Cause, she wont even understand wad's is th real friendship and wad th bonds that both parties should have.
Friends go thru ups & downs with me, not fcuking judge me here & there.
I cant denied that i accept Deping into my life, wana know why?
Cause we went thru alot !
When im sad, troubled, unhappy with stuffs, she never fail to even be there for me when i need someone when she's jus A NORMAL FRIEND to me that time.
Dun she deserves better than treating her as a normal friend instead of letting her be my BFF.
As, when im with her, i find my happiness, th craziness we shared, th laughters.
I rather accept someone who can manage to be there for me, not everytime but at least when im down instead of having someone with th mouth jus says best friend but yet, not showing out when i need them. LOL!

--16 days to go ~
Love, love, love :D
Looking forward for your next upcoming homeleave/outing.
We got loads to share, loads to talk about.
I dun care wad pple gona say cause im jus so in love with you (:

2010-01-26T22:23:00.001+08:00

Good Day Earthlings :D !

Yesterday ; 25'January.
Went out with Ahmin'girlf to Bukit Merah.
Fetched my beloved Denz'paidang from school (:
Also meetup with Vion, Val & Debbie over there.
Dint managed to meetup with Ahrin :(
Lol, send them back to Eunos & we trained back to HarbourFront, went over to St.james.
Done with all th paperwork & collect my uniforms (:
After that, bused back to BP together with Ahmin'girlf.
Had our dinner & back home.

Today.
Went over to Bukit Merah to fetch Denz too but she dint came to school. Wtf.
Ahmin'girlf & I was like super disappointing :(
But, forget it.
Send them back to SGH, shout for Denz.
Something on happened to Jonas. Felt so sad for her :(
Then, went over to Ubi, had over dinner & slacked till 8 plus.
Cabbed back to BP together with Ahmin (: Cheers !

SPECIALLY TO MY JONAS'LAOPA !
I know its not easy at all.
& definitely its unfair to you.
Although i really wanted to get your pride back but i know you wont allow me doing this.
Laopa, there's still so many better ones around & i believe you get one better than her.
I cant be by your side so oftenly due to my work but i SWEAR !
Im your nuerh, i wont leave you aside (:
You're still my LAOPA, understand ?!
Anything, my phone will be 24/7 on but provided you dun call me when im sleeping.
Smile often but cry out if you feel troubled.
Dun keep everything to yourself, make yourself more terrible, NOT GOOD FOR HEALTH!
You're someone i treasure & i dun wish to see you feel so bad & upset over her.
Remember, BE HAPPY & SMILE (:
Nuerh can make you LAUGH all day if i can, i sure go ! Yesyes :D
Cheerup alrights?

--18 days to go ~
Yang, Im missing you :(
Idk if you miss me not?
After you went back to SGH after your outing, it seem so much different in my life again.
Im so lost again without you, im like living alone again :(
I love you, my beloved (:

2010-01-24T21:46:00.001+08:00

Cheers for Earthlings :D !
Blogger is having some freak up problems again, no pictures for today :(
& Shersher is FCUK, DAMN, FREAK, HAPPY TODAY !
Cause i meetup with Love today & yes, we're still th same. Cheers (: !

Hugged my phone to sleep yesterday night.
Till morning, alot of pple bombed me up. Lol.
So, recieved Love's text, jumped outta my bed & called her.
Planned to meet her up.
Prepared & went to have my breakfast.
Bused down to Bugis.
Meetup with Ahrin & Love first.
Love hugged me once she saw me ! Haas, her reaction was like super big lo. Kns.
Went to fag together & slacked at KFC.
Xiaogerl & Kelle came after that.
Love explained to me over th whole incident.
Okay, she got loads of comments, crazy ass.
Comment my hair, said i look more like a ahlian, NO LOR!
Spend my time to th fullest till her mum came & her mum was freaking angry when she saw me.
LOL! Wadever, i dun give a damned lar.
But, i still managed to talk outside Long John's with Love.
Then, rushed back home by bus together with Emerson & Xiaogerl.
Then cabbed back home & straight to th phone with Love.
Guess we got loads of things to share :( But sadly, she have to go back alrd.
Sighs, endure ~ I wan to last long with her, my love.
Oh gosh, im really happy & excited !
Time pass so fast during outside when spending time with her :( Eeks ~ Not fair !
But, i cherish wad i've gotten (: Thankfully !

--Beloved Yang~
I believe 20 days is going flies fast alrights?
Idk wad's gona happen seriously after 20 days.
But, hopefully, everything goes well for me & you.
Shall make this love stronger each day when im missing you, can we?
I love you, DSXY (:

2010-01-23T23:45:00.002+08:00

Good day Earthlings :D !
I find this above picture damn freak adorable eh . LOL!

A super tiring day ~
Whole day out for shopping, super shioke !
Wakeup & prepare.
Last minute, Deping dint answer my call, so went up her place & knock on her door.
Yar, end up is her mum who opened th door.
Lol, i think if her house collapse, she wont know either.
So, waited for her to prepare.
Cabbed over to Bugis, Iluma first.
Meetup with Jonas & Emerson.
Have Thai Express for lunch.
Sucks ~ Th food price sucks too :(
Then, fagged and walked over to Bugis Junction for movie.
Watched Jump; 跳出去 - Rated : 5/5 ***
Th show is damned damned damned freaking NICE !
Thumbs up for it ! You guys wont regret after watching it, i swear !
But, for those who are simply in love with Dance uhs. Ha!
After that, start shopping !
I brought 3 tops, 1 belt & 1 damned high heels !
& im totally broke now !
I love my heels seriously, it's so nice but so high :(
After th shopping, we were all so exhausted !
Cabbed back to BP, went over 103, slacked awhile & back home.

--10 more hours ~
My beloved is coming out soon.
Dk how things will turned out to be :(

2010-01-22T00:00:00.001+08:00

Hellos Earthlings :D !
Above are th photos i left out during my previous post. LOL!
I LOVE GATHERINGS, ITS GREAT !
But sadly, this weekend, my girls are all bring confined :(
They got caught smoking & thats it.
Gathering cancelled, eeks ~
I ought to plan another gathering during CNY (: !

Dint went out this few days as im having cramps.
Jus out for supper & slacked with friends.
I know for my situation now, i cant isolate myself at home but im really freaking lazy to get my butt outta th house manzxzx !

Tmr is my SHOPPING SPREE !
Which i actually craved for like years, LOL!
Im shopping for CNY's clothes & movie for tmr :D Cheers !
Okay, im starting to fall in love with MOVIES yea :D !
Wadever it is, life do change .
Anw, im kinda superstitious & "someone" told me to endure for this few days~
I knew it. For my temper, i have to. FOR THIS MOMENT !
Im trying my best not to let my anger occurs up & yes, hopefully i can.
& that "someone" do said, if i do not endure, things will get tough & complicated for me. LOL!
Yea, so in order not to get into any troubles, i better buck up (:
Better than not to, in case uhs (:

I made up my mind & its th LAST TIME !
Im going back to DSXY.
( Yar, you readers are not reading th wrong post ! )
Credits to Sandy (: Thanks girl !
She actually chat with me on Msn, letting me know & giving me advices on how should i react.
I bet im giving another chance to DSXY.
& i do hope, never a second time for her anymore.
Although, pple might said im stupid in going back to her.
But, i guess, when it comes to LOVE, everyone is stupid, isnt?
Yar, of course, i have to thanks those who standby me along th way like my LAOPA; JONAS !
(LAOPA, i know you'll be reading my blog & read this (: )
She's also someone who is giving me lots of encouragement & accompanying me when im super down ! If not, idk where i might belong to now or even use other inproper ways to get over my stress (:
& not forgetting others like ... Deping & co.
I owe you guys a BIG THANKYOU (:
& other than them, i guess no one rather stand important in my heart anymore.
Cause after my down period time, i seen thru some pple colors.
So, thats it.
SHERSHER STILL STAYS ALIVE (: ! Cheers !

--My beloved Yang.
I hope you saw this one day.
Everytime i wanted to be cruel to myself & get you outta my mind.
But, i cant do it at all.
My hearts & minds thinks of you every now & then.
My love for you still stays so strong even in my previous post, i do said that my feeling fade.
Like wad you said, you thought your feeling fade too.
But, when i & you think back, feelings doesnt goes away at all !
I believe our love could be stronger right, my love?
Idk wad will come by as times goes, but all i hope for is to spend my time with you as long you're out.
& be there whenever i can.
I jus dunwan you to go, dunwan you to belong to anyone else cause im truly in love with you.
Idk if this time round, im wrong to forgive you.
But, i love you & i dunwana lose you even im wrong to forgive.
I jus wan to prove to you, i'll make this waiting worthwhile.
I'll make you trust that i wont runaway or even leave you alone.
I'll be hanging on till you're fully out.
I'll always be th one who standby you no matter how hard it takes.
Even if you were to turn away one day, i will never shed a tear.
& i will never forget that i once have you as my love, my precious.
I do truly miss you, do you know?

2010-01-21T13:42:00.000+08:00

Hellos Earthlings :D
Surprised that i wakeup this early uhs?
Disturbed by a call, Vion called.
Above are all th photos taken last Friday (:
I love th photos :D Nice !

20'January.
Out for a interview at St.james.
Bus-ed down there to meetup with Jonas.
I dint get to meetup with Aubreyk as i was super late due to th freaking bus driver who drove so fcuking slow !
Waited for th interview almost for an hour.
But, its worthwhile (: I passed !
Starting work next Wednesday, cheers :D
Walked over to Vivo aftermath.
Super Dog for dinner. & th food there sucks !
Should had Mac's or other fastfood instead.
Chilled out with Jonas.
Shopped & slacked there.
Till 10 plus, bused back to BP.
Walked over to 103, meetup with Deping & had supper (:
Slacked till 12a.m plus, went home .

Im trying to find loads of things to keep myself occupied so that i wont think about it anymore.
In fact, i cant move on, cant let go.
But, i know when its time, i still have to do th same.
I love her still, but i cant turn back anymore.
She started this & im afraid of a second time anymore.
They ask me to collect her letter she wrote, an explanation letter.
Guess wad, i asked them to throw away.
Partly i wan to make cruel for myself to forget everything.
Even though i yearns for wad she wrote inside.
But, still, i force myself to text them to throw away.
& slowly, i packed all her stuffs & th letters she wrote and everything, returned to her this coming week.
I dunwan to keep any of her stuffs and letters, even th things she gave.
I dunwan her memories to trigger my heart & lead me to nowhere.
I wanted to forget her totally, let go of every single thing.
I wan to force myself doing things i dislikes so much !
& after this relationship, same thing, i wont fall into any relationship anymore for th time being.
I wont allowed anyone to enter my life & leave for no reasons or even leave with such reasons.
Never will i. Th hurt is too deep that it would take a longer time to heal.
I wont ever shed a tear for anyone anymore.
I swear for it !

2010-01-19T22:27:00.000+08:00

Thats all !
No more relationships for me anymore !
No more crying over guys or bungs !
No more loving anyone else wholeheartedly !
No more waiting like a fool for anyone anymore !
No more missing anyone like one bloody ass !
No more, no more, no more !

DIANNA SIA XING YING !
FCUK OFF !
Now i seen your true colors & yes, you prove me right!
You're still a flirt, a bastard, a sicko, a fcuker, a asshole !
Your heart still cant stays strong ! Your heart still plays wild !
Dun let me give you one tight slap this upcoming week & thats it !
I make sure you regret wad you done !
Fcuk you lar, HOLDER?
Hold my feet lar, sicko !
You're jus a fcuking bung, a useless bung to me !

EEEEEEEKKKKS ~

2010-01-16T22:20:00.000+08:00

Shersher is down with FLU :(
Photos will be upload late as my blogger is going insane :D LOL!
So, catch up readers & my beloved friends who cant wait for these photos we took !

15'January.
Wakeup, slacked ~ Blah, blah, blah.
Till 7p.m plus, prepared & stuffs.
Walked over to Deping's place.
Had my dinner there & cabbed down to Boat Quay.
Intend to interview but another issue pop up is that St.james agreed to interview me :D
So, gave up for BQ interview.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KITTY (:
She celebrated her birthday at Amber21, so we went over there.
Winnie & Meibao came after that, we drink & chat (:
Followed by Teresa.
Cabbed over to Geylang, meetup with Kelle, Baba & Kelle's boyf ; Ahorh (:
Slacked there quite a while.
& down to Oasis!
Super havoc-tic place :D
Saw Jasmine.C there too.
Th music played is mostly Technos, nice but my dance for Technos totally lost :(
Ha! All th way till closing, 6a.m.
Cabbed back to BP, went over coffeeshop eat & home sweet home (:
K.O straight !

Till now, im still very tired.
Flu comes & goes :( Fcuk!
& my stomach is not getting any better.
Everytime when i drank too much or even liquor more, my stomach hurts alot :(
Eeks ~ My body is getting weaker ~

--How am i going to face everything on th 23th?
Wad would vth outcome be?
If only i could predict.
So much things im looking forward to it,
but, somehow, now, everything seem to turns out different.
& how i wished you wont be coming out.
Fcuk! Wad th hack am i thinking about?!

2010-01-13T23:16:00.000+08:00

IM A CRAZY BITCH :D ! YES, IM !
Okay, my mind is going abit mad, jus bear with it (:

Today wakeup, prepared and bused down to Vivo.
Meetup with Aubreyk, get over to interview.
Okay, th recep. is superb GL _|_
But, forget it. I've got to book an appointment for interview before i can start work.
Lol, so, a wasted trip :(
So, took th long journey of bus back to bp.
Go home changed & meetup with Deping for dinner.
& back home aftermath.

Tmr is DSXY & mine der 7th month & seriously, im not happy.
Feeling fade, tired & sick. Arrgh, idk myself too.
Things would changed after she's out also even though she said wont.
We belong to th different world alrd, nothing could mend back also.
This is something i dun wan it to happen, but somehow when i think back, how long this can last?
If this time round, she marathon again, my life is different once again.
Restrictions in so much things, like th life im having now.
Im thinking so much, i dunwana hurt her but i wanted to give up.
Shit ! Wad am i thinking about ?!
Everything is different alrd, no longer th past.

2010-01-12T09:05:00.001+08:00

Good Morning Earthlingssss :D !
This post is a super early one uhs !
& guess wad, i haven gotten up to bed till now !
Fcuk it, my sleeping disorder is getting more & more worse :(
Can someone tell me wad to do about it? Lol.

11'January.
Wakeup, prepared & bused down to Celmenti.
Meetup with Aubreyk, to Lanshop.
Till, evening, called up Jonas & meet her at Tiong Plaza for movie.
So, Aubreyk & me trained down to Tiong, brought our tickets & had Mos for dinner while waiting for Jonas to come.
Jonas came & we move on to fag & MOVIE TIME (:
Watched Sherlock Holmes, Rated ; 3.5/5**
Quite a complicated story with much more of Russia actions.
More to a English drama, hard to understand actually.
Only till th last part towards th ending makes my heart pumps even faster.
End show, fagged & cabbed back to BP.
103, accompanied Deping for supper?
Then, walked back to her place & waited for Ahwei to come.
He came fetched us, reached there, wait for his brother(fyi, its not real blood but best friend.)
& off we went to Thai Disco @ Tama Jurong.
Havoc-tic lar dey !
Atmosphere there, not bad (:
Drink again, abit tipsy but still can manage (: Nice one !
Till closing, we cabbed down to BP, 163, they makan & slacked awhile then both th guys send us back.
& im home, yet i cant fall asleep plus im SUPER HUNGRY ~

Tonight mayb Prawning Session if i can wakeup.
& hopefully, i can (:

All i can say, feeling towards D.S.X.Y fade.
Not so much of love i had for her like i used to.
Going thru a hard time of wanting to turn back straight.
Mayb when i know that she's coming out, my fears & doubts grown stronger.
& i believe, woman's instinct are very accurate, am i supposed to say that?
I should had a better choice, looking forward to every single thing.
But, somehow im not.
So wad can i say? Let go or not?

Washed brain by someone & i realised Best friend is really hard to come by.
Idk how to react when comes to certain things but i definitely know wad's going on.
Should i be heartless & leave it alone or should i jus continue to act like im a blur cock?
Somehow, things are getting complicated once more. WTF !

2010-01-09T23:20:00.001+08:00

Hellos Earthlings :D!

Currently using Guoping's lappy to update my blog (:

Its been so long since i went missing from my blog & there's so much for me to update .

07'January.

Wokeup & prepared.

Wait for Deping to come then went down to meet Ahwei & Xiaohai.

Its our first meet & its was like so awkward lar "/ Ha!

Met them, slacked and stuffs.

They left, Deping & me went up Sebast's place (:

Finally, after years, my beloeved kor2 is out !

Then, bus-ed down to Boonlay, meetup with Andy&Yaolong.

Went Boonlay market to eat and drink there.

Ahtong came down awhile & went back home after that.

08'January.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAOLONG KOR2 :D

Bombed up by Sophia, so prepared straight.

Then, walk-ed over to Bangkit, take my pay and trained over to Sophia's boyf place.

My nails first try by Sophia, super scary !

Till night, cabbed over to Tongchuan's tua.

Meetup with Blood&co.

After that to 103, taken my dinner and slacked.

Wait for Yaolong to come.

Went over to my place, changed & stuffs.

Wait for Andy's cab to come, cabbed over to Clark Quay.

Woahs, Hit club @ THE ARENA :D !

Th place was superb although it was kinda small but over all, we enjoyed :D

Me & Deping danced till super high!

All thway till closing at 6a.m.

Cabb-ed down Geylang, have our breakfast and home sweet home.

K.O straight (:

[EDIT-TED]
Jus now went over to BPP.
Meetup with Sebast awhile & then over to look for Guoping&co.
Waited for Jonas to come (:
Had PizzaHut for dinner !
Then, went to that freak place & back home :D

--第172天，没有DSXY的日子。

I miss you but i guess i have to leave :(

2010-01-05T22:43:00.000+08:00

Everytime I turned back & looked.

Sighs, rotting at home since starting of th week :(
Supposed to go to work but, sadly, i cant get up.
Having sleep disorders.
Somehow, im like a vampire. Eeks ~
Now, only till 4a.m till morning, then i could get to sleep & wakeup in th next day late afternoon.
In fact, i find myself so useless.
Im trying so hard to buck up & earn for wad my parents wan but i cant :(
Heard my mum saying things about me, wad can i do?
I can only hide myself somewhere & take as nothing happened.
Besides that, there's nothing i can do.
This feelings sucks :(
I seriously need a job but my sleeping disorders caused me this way.
When im in SGH, all my goals was made with pple around & make me success in almost everything, but, now?
After i discharged, no one for me to rely on & no one is there to guide me thru.
Wad else can i do?
My mum's working Nightlife job which i dun get to see her every now & then.
We speak less than 10 sentences each day.
& all she picks on are all my weakness instead of strengths.
This make me thought i rather rot & make wad she said true instead of proving her WRONG!
Why? Caused even if i does, she wont see it as well.
So, why mus i?
Thats also th reason i chose to stay in SGH than to discharge & lead this kind of life.
My dad? Worse still, all he know was to gave me money.
My brother? Never i speak to him more than 10 sentences per year.
Family? I wonder wad is it?

2010-01-03T23:02:00.001+08:00

To that small kiddo named KELLY when you're actually named *W*E*Y.
Firstly, im so thankful that you made a effort to spam my blog.
& making so much entertainment to make me laugh.
Secondly, i bet you smell my hole before if not you wont ask me to throw myself to guys & let them smell my smelly hole when you smell before?
LMFAO ! My name is not AH SLUT !
My girls dint gave me that name, i bet it suits you better (:
Brush off your english & get th meaning clear of wad is SLUT before coming here & act like a dog to bark around. Laughs.
2010 is a bad year for me? Thanks for your greetings!
But it would definitely be a much more worse year to you as i guess cursing pple in sucha way deserves much more retribution uhs?
& i bet you're someone narrow-minded, so sad for you.
Lesbian only, need to be so exaggerating over it?
Ha! Are you still living in 2006? Or worse still, 1995?
Not happy with it? Report to th police lar, i dun give a damned also.
But, if i were to report you, you'll get it more than i do. Wan try?
Dun talk so much down in my tagboard, not happy with me being a lesbian?
Dun jus leave your name down, leave your number down,
Come out & talk, dun be a cyber gangster & act as if you know me damn well.
Last of all, im glad that you know its 2010, so stop acting like so childish, hiding behind th com and act as if you're so power in my tagboard.
Get a life and learn some manners from your parents .
If not, i'll pity your parents for not teaching you well !
Bye, spammer !
Btw, still got one thing, so sad to say, my loved ones all came back to me, arent you jealous? Ha!
P/S : Jus to let you know that i track down your IP address, Ha!
Someone who stayed in BUKIT MERAH ? So coincidence uhs? LOL!
Dun worry, th game jus start only & i'll make it roll ~

Readers, wad a good entertainment we had uhs? Ha! Enjoy (:

2010-01-02T00:00:00.000+08:00

Hellos Earthlings :D !
Above photos are all taken at th HollyWood Dino Journey (:
Nice one !
I know i looked sucks in all these photos :( Ha!

I met up with Ahtong today (:
Did not went any places today, still th same, all th way at BP.
And, back home (:

There's so much things troubling me nowadays :(
Friendship problems make my life so fcukup !
My true friend left me one by one ~
Wad can i do?
I envy those pple who got their best friends who would be by their side.
& face up with every obstacles together.
As for me? It totally th opposite >.<
Yar, i cant denied its my fault to left without a word, but dun i deserve a chance to mend back?
Is avoiding th only way?
I feel like crying, but nothing came out from my eyes.
I feel like doing those stuffs that are my restrictions, but im afraid.
Best friend? Issit words that came out easily? Written jus like this?
If is this th way, i chose not to have any of them.
Yea, friends do walked in & out of my life, but times changes everything.
When i made a mistake to a friend, i was like being condemned by th whole world :(
Is this wad i deserve?
Every pple wore masks on their faces & how am i supposed to read their mind?
Im getting so fcuked up, trying to seek for my own soul that ran nowhere.
Things that i seen, trying to tell me that i wont be able to find it.
I blame myself.
It hurt so much when i saw wad he wrote, so hurt when i get to know i caused him in this state.
I tried to tell him in a way, that i still cares.
He dint showed any replied. Wad does it mean?
I dint have th courage to apologized to him .
Its been months, you see.
How long it going to last?

2010-01-01T23:16:00.001+08:00

Happy New Year Earthlovelings :D !
Bet everyone of my readers do enjoy their night out there uhs? Ha!
No photos or any graphics for this post, as i've some photos taken at Jurong Bird Park today.
But, due to blogger problem, i cant upload any single one. So, shall wait till tmr when i post up all (:

31'Decmeber.
Th very last day of 2009 :D
Prepared around evening, wait for Deping.
Walked over to Janice's place for steamboat (:
There's quite a number of pple at her place.
We drove down to CSC, intend to stable down there but when we reached there, it was like totally packed !
So, shift ourselves back to my Mum's working place ; Ipub (:
As, i dun have enough cash with me & im like super broke !
Drink and craps ~
Yaolong came down but went off awhile on & Andy came down.
Then, Countdown session ! Woos ~
Danced and enjoyed th spraying session!
& jus one particular person get so fed up with th New year text i send. Wth, i find it super lame and childish. Ha! I dun give a damned as if i hardup her boyf for fcuk? LOL!
After that, head over to Coffeeshop nearby as im craving for chicken wings. Laughs.
So, ate there and back to Ipub.
Simply cant stand some pple which they are not singaporeans & keep overtaking Janice's song.
Wth, they're so fcuk up!
And, they're being some sarcastic that i almost shouted at them >.< Eeks !
Closing, cabbed back to BP ; 103.
Slacked there till morning, back home and K.O !

01'Jan'2010 !
Brand new year :D
Wokeup in th early morning 9a.m when i only slept around 6a.m >.< Steaming !
Then, prepared and Aunt came to drove us around 10a.m
Set off to Jurong Bird Park (:
Watched th Hollywood Dinos which make them REAL !
Nice one :D ! Guess over all i enjoyed only this instead of those birds :( Sucks !
Went back home in th afternoon & home, changed and washed up, K.O!

RESOLUTIONS FOR 2010 (:

Find a stable job asap
Learn to see things in a wider way.
Control my temptations ; never to let it overtake.
Get some skills to learn asap.
Learn to think and be mature like a 18yrs old teen.
LEARN TO FACE EVERY SINGLE THING !

--第163天，没有DSXY的日子。
Finally, a brand new year that we went thru.
You'll be out soon, my love (:

2009-12-30T23:56:00.000+08:00

I dun denied that we drift this time.
Dun denied that things are getting worse for us this time.
Wad's going on?
Someone who stand by me every now & then, somehow became a stranger to me.
Should i get used to it? Should i move on?
Or should i kept myself in a corner and cry like a small kid?
Mixed feelings kept flashing thru my mind, making me living in hell.
A new year suppose to be a year afresh and anew, but i seem to stand still, i cant move.

Can someone or you, my friend, to tell me wad you really wan?
Tell me wad can i do to make you stay?
Jus let me know, do i have to move on?
If yes, i wont ever bother about it anymore.
Stop letting all these feelings flashed thru my mind, and kept all things aside that concerns you.

Till now, you're still keeping quiet, refused to tell me wad's going wrong.
Nevermind if you let it go, i understand.

I know wad to do, jus one word from you.
Leave or Stay.

2009-12-29T17:34:00.000+08:00

Hellos Earthlings (:
My cramps is killing me & im having LS sickness :(
Wtf, both coming at one time ! Torturing me so much ~

28'Decmeber.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ANDY ONG :D !
Had a last minute small celebration for him last night.
Went out only in th evening.
Walk-ed over to plaza together with Deping and Janice.
Brought Andy's cake and presents.
Then, back to 117.
Waited for Janice call, walk-ed over to her place, helped to carry foods and all th stuffs.
Brought down to th BBQ pit.
Waited for everyone to arrive.
Although time was kinda clashed but gladly everything turns out smoothly :D
Then, slacked there & walked over to 103, slacked there awhile and back home.

From now, i tell myself.
Never to trust anyone around me.
NOT ANYONE !
After so much, i had enough & never again.
My life should be simple but why it leads to me to nowhere?
I understand th lies that hide beneath every human.
Another side of their face that they dint shown.
Jus a moment like this make me realised so much.
& i finally understand~
Not anyone will treat you real by their heart.
Jus for th sake of status and fame, they'll do anything.
Every human jus live for th sake of living to drove pple insane;
thats was we called, Realistic.

Hopefully, next year would be a better year for me (:
World turning ; Pple changing.
Im used to it. Ha !
New resolutions for 2010 would be update soon.
So, readers ! Do catch up soon !

--第160天，没有DSXY的日子。
Be patient and it'll be fast, my love.

2009-12-27T00:00:00.000+08:00

Specially to that SOMEONE ; MY DEAR FRIEND.

I left my friend, someone who dotes me more than anyone does, someone who never failed to be there when i needed him. Someone who thought of me first than himself.
Someone who kept my secrets without leaking it out. Someone who takes me as his sister. Someone who helped me out with difficulties. Someone who go thru with me these years.

I make a mistake, to leave him alone.
Make things and life worse for him.
Despite saying sorry to me when he make no mistakes, i refused to speak.

I refused to gave him chance to speak at all.
I meant so much to him yet my mind bring me astray ~
I thought i need time, jus abit of time, but unexpectedly, it took almost months.

Now, i lost almost everything.
Im sorry, my friend.

You may not read this at all but i hope my courage would bring me up one day.
I miss th times we used to spend.
Jus when i realised, everything is too late, you wont turn back anymore.
This post is specially for you, my friend.

2009-12-26T18:30:00.000+08:00

Hellos Earthlovelings :D
Catch up with my updates yea ?

24'December.
It's X'mas eve!
Wokeup around 10.30a.m when i slept only for 3hours.
Prepared and stuffs.
Walk-ed down to Bangkit together with Deping.
Meetup Yaolong, Xiaolong&hisgirlf.
Cabb-ed down to Town.
Sakura's Buffet (: Satisfaction for my Sashimi's and Salmons :D Yummy !
Then, went window shopping at Town.
Till, late night, cabb-ed down to Boat Quay together with Deping.
Had our dinner there & waited for Sophia&her boyf there.
Cyclone for drinking Session (:
Countdown for X'mas there and had fun.
Till closing, we went touring for hotels but most of them was fully booked.
But, finally, we found one near Tiong.
Cape-Inn (:
Went in, check in and went down to eat.
Had Spicy Steamboat for supper? Breakfast? Ha!
Then, went back hotel with some drinks and played cards and talk cocks till morning 9a.m.
Slept all th way till next afternoon 4p.m & checked out.

25'December.
X'mas :D
Wakeup from hotel and walk-ed down to Tiong's hawker for breakfast.
Cabb-ed down to Deping's place and parted with Sophia&her boyf.
Waited for her to changed and stuffs.
Then, cabb-ed back to my place.
Changed and slept for 2hours.
Then, wakeup and walk-ed down to 259's 大日子.
Slack-ed with them awhile & back home.

Tonight will be having dinner at 259's 大日子.

My own best friend.
Wrote so many nasty things in her blog.
She doesnt know how much it hurts to me.
Okay, i admit, im hanging out with someone she dislikes but she seriously dun understand.
How much she wants me to think? Wad she really wan?
She asked me to think every single time when things occurred and refused to speak out anything and point out wad i've done.
I've tried to explained things over & over again.
Letting her know every thing that i can remembered.
Knowing that she's my only best friend & without thinking of replacing her with anyone.
She never thought of wad im thinking.
She got her own life with everything & i cant be th lightbulb getting on with them.
She cant hung out with me in th late night to clubs and out for shopping, jus th BOTH OF US !
I can also put aside and tried to understand all these, so wad can i do?
Obviously, i had to find someone to accompany with all these, but even all these, im still not trying to replaced her at all.
Why? Why? Why?
This is wad best friends are for?
Saying things that are so sarcastic & finding all ways to make you feel guilty?
Nice one, this is wad i knew it now !
& for th words she said, i kept it in my heart and remembered all for my lifetime.
She said these are all jokes for her? Ha ! Friendship are jus jokes for her?
Thanks to her, i finally knew it.

--第157天，没有DSXY的日子。
You're all i yearns for now.
Jus you & not anyone anymore.

2009-12-23T17:23:00.000+08:00

Hellos Earthing !
Im superb duper tired & my energy has fallen to 20% :(
Ha !

22'December.
Went out around late afternoon.
Meetup with Weihong at 117 together with his friends.
Then, they accompanied me home for dinner & Deping came.
Waited for Enghock & co. to fetched us over to th 大日子 held at Bangkit.
Reached there, saw Blood&co.
So, relac with them.
Till late night, something bad happened to Tongchuan :(
Shan't elaborate much but after all, i felt sad for him .
Anw, after that, went back to my place together with Deping.
Changed & stuffs, went out again.
Sophia;mummy&her boyf;daddy came to fetch us by cab.
Down to somewhere around Town, had supper there.
& down to one club? Which im not sure th place is like wad? LOL!
But, all i can, th place is super fabulous, wonderful, amazing & most is SHOCKING !
For my whole life of 18 years, i dint went to this kind of place which shocks me so damned much !
Haas, but, th music there was power, enviroment rated 4.8/5**
Th losing point is th pple who sings there !
Seriously, i sing much more better than them :D
All th way till morning ~
Cabb-ed back to bp ; Fajar.
Mac's for breakfast.
& parted with Sophia&her boyf, Deping & me walk-ed back to my place.
Washed up & K.O !

CHRISTMAS EVE TMR :D
Sakura buffet in th afternoon.
Club in th night :D

--第154天，没有DSXY的日子。
Love, jus few more weeks ~
I miss your voice & its like finally ~

2009-12-20T23:01:00.000+08:00

Hellos Earthing !
Shall update everything for these past few days. Laughs :D

18'November.
All i can recalled is i went up Tongchuan's tua together with Deping.
Then, meetup with Yaolong for movie at Causeway Point.
We watched 风云；Storm Warriors 2
**Rated : 4/5
Th losing point of this movie is th effects.
Too much of computerized effects.
Much more like Cartoon show. LOL!
&& th movie was kinda complicated, and some of th characters jus went missing with no reasons.
No ending movie :(
After movie, cabb-ed down to Yishun, fetched Andy&Avian back to bp.
Went 103 slacked.
Juan came over to slacked awhile with me (:
Nice one ! We get to find out more things !
Anw, i believe strong friendship, no matter wad, would never to part easily (:
Ha ! Then, send Juan on cab and home sweet home (:

19'November.
A SUPER BORINGGGGG SATURDAY !

20'November ; TODAY.
Get to fall asleep only in th morning 5a.m plus.
Mayb over excited to meet my sgh's babies? LOL!
Wakeup at 9a.m, prepared and stuffs.
Deping last minute play stunt, so wait for her to prepare and all that.
Went out at almost to 11a.m.
Meetup with Deping and bus-ed down to Eunos, then cabb-ed down to Tamp.
Super steam !
Meetup with Vionne, Pohyng, Maine & Xiaoru first.
Then, went Long John's for breakfast.
Then, followed by Val & Zhiqian who came.
Ha ! Emerson, Shiluan[She's damn extra!], Joii, came after that.
We went window shopping around and meetup with Rin and Denz after that.
Slacked and jokes :D Super fun !
While slack-ing, Feng came :D Ha ! Super hiphop and funny, th way she's walks and talk.
Sucha big group we had :D
All i can say is ENJOY !
Cause so many pple since so long i dint get to meetup, turn up today (: Woahs!
Bus-ed over to Tamp Safra.
Pool Session (:
Then, bus-ed back bp together with Deping.
Wtf, th bus journey is like from Singapore to Malaysia >.< Super freaking long !
Its worth actually, to spend time with them (:
& with them, my stress jus simply goes away (:
LOVE YOU GIRLS :D

Starting my new job on Tuesday (:
This time round, gona work hard to earn for wad i wan !
I mus ENDURE ~

--第151天，没有DSXY的日子。
I know how much i mean to you.
So, i wont let it go ~
Thanks for all th things you done & said (:

2009-12-17T00:00:00.000+08:00

Hellos Earthing ! :D
Wad a tiring day i had today ~ Super steam !

My phone and house phone got bombed by Weihong & Avian.
So LL, wakeup and prepare everything by 9.30a.m >.<
Meetup with them and cabb-ed down to fetch Deping, then down to City Square.
Send Weihong to work, as promised and had breakfast with th rest.
Had Pepper Lunch (:
Then, slacked here & there.
Walked almost th whole shopping mall jus to wait for Weihong's break.
Finally 3p.m, but we went in for interview.
Lol, im going over as a part time (:
Starting work next week !
Accompanied Weihong for lunch & he went back to work.
So, Deping, Avian & me bus-ed back to bp.
Avian went home first while Deping & me went over to my place.
Had our dinner, and wait for Weihong to end work.
When he's otw back, we went down 117 and slacked.
&& home sweet home (:

Clear things out with Juan & found out so much things.
SHARINA TANG !
Dint expect you're sucha bitch?
Saying all those sickening works which dun even came out from my mouth?!
Jus you watch out !

Im super irritated & disgusted by that guy >.<
Stay far from me, i please you !

--第148天，没有DSXY的日子。
Finally, days are getting nearer (:

2009-12-16T00:00:00.001+08:00

Hellos Earthing !
Im back, back & BACK to update :D

Life nowadays seem to stay th same.
Meetup with th same cliques in th afternoon, which is Weihong, Avian & Deping.
They fetched me to work when its time & fetched me from work when i end.
Thanks to those to came to my workplace and get drinks from me (:
Like Blood&co. I dun denied that my way of making those differents drinks cant compared to th BEST of it, but i shall improve (: Ha!
But, im still considering if i were to continue working as i cant pple there >.<
F* them up ! Sicko.
We have living walking CCTV around us and all they know is to complaint here and there and pick on me and my client.
For this three fcuking days im been working, they'd been complaining for three days !

Forget it, im going to interview at another place ; Weihong's work place.
Tmr i'll be going there, so if everything goes well as wad Weihong said, SLACKED WORK !
I swear, i'll jump over there (:
So far for wad i heard, th pay and everything is so much better off than my current job which is freaking slack, so why not? Laughs.

im going to turn in early tonight once momma come back.
If not, my phone will burst tmr with them bomb-ing my phone. Ha!

Mango's on sales now !
Should have asked Weihong to buy me one tee !
Arrgh, so tempting can?!

--弟147天，没有DSXY的日子。
Im missing you seriously, come out faster (:

2009-12-14T00:00:00.000+08:00

Hellos Earthing !
Today is my first day of work & everything goes smoothly.
Although its kinda difficult and i do make little mistake throughout.
But, hopefully this work can last me long (:

Wakeup early today and prepared.
Meetup Jonas, Emerson & Jiayuan around bp.
Have Subway for lunch? :D LOL!
Went off around 3p.m plus, to Grand's place.
Left there and meetup with TeddyBear & Weijian.
Home and meetup with Weihong & Avian.
Bus-ed down to work.
Deping, Avian & Weihong fetched me off from work.
Head down to Kim San Leng.
Wait for Weihong's friend, Fari (: Name sounds unique eh?! I spent time to figure out his name lor ! LOL!
Slacked around & have fun and they send me back home after we send Weihong home.
Seriously, Weihong look like a ZOMBIE ! He dint sleep for 1 week eh. POWER !

Have to wakeup early tmr again.
Meet th same pple above i mentioned.
Provided that Weihong dun sleep for days uhs. Ha!

So, Goodnights my dear readers :D
Keep catching up for my updates !

--第145天，没有DSXY的日子。
Happy 6th Month Anniversary :)
Hubby, i love you.

2009-12-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

Shersher's back to update (:
Finally, my stuffs are all settled and still have thanks those who stand by me (:

Wakeup today, talked on th phone then prepared.
Meetup with Andy, bus-ed down together to turf club :D
Today confirm is LIVE RACE!
Meetup up Blood&co there and Yaolong'kor was there too.
Bus-ed back bp after that and slacked awhile & home sweet home (:

Shersher's is working tmr (:
No time for everything eh.
But, clubbing and nightlife shall always be listed !

--第144天，没有DSXY的日子。
Tmr is our anniversary, and its like miracle that we manage to pull thru this long.
I dunknow how much i can hold on, but i still keep up to my promises, to wait till you're out.
Things changed but i hope this r/s would not change.

Phobia, I swear !

2009-12-11T16:50:00.000+08:00

Shersher's back to update (:
Above are all th photos taken at 115's dinner.

10'December.
Went out in th afternoon after i received Minghong's call.
He came over to fetch me and we head over to fetch another guy at Teckwhye.
Then, drove down to Bt.Batok, meetup with Aephix and get my letter.
Then, to Bt.Timah to fetch Huiru from work.
Went over to 115's dinner and drink, drink, drink !
Not satisfied enough :(
Then, hopped onto Minghong's car and off we went Rounding !
And, i swear! Im super phobia of cars now !
Earlier, i did said i dun agree to drove up to cemetery, but they insist.
So, Weihong and one of th guy ; my kor2[dunknow how to spell his name] was fcukup drunk.
my kor2 vomited in th cemetery and i knew something bad gona happen :(
And, yes ! It happened !
Told Minghong to drive carefully and steadily as there are 2 persons whose drunk & th car can only speed up to 120km/h.
But, he speed all th way to 140km/h !!
Fcuk, fcuk, fcuk !
There's a sloppy turn and he go all th way without brakes and th car nearly turned over.
Yea, we almost lose our lives :(
Th car was badly spoilt but luckily, no one suffered serious injuries .
For th cemetery stuffs, shall not elaborate so much.
Went home after that.

I admit i still treasure this friendship but i would never turned back again.
I said it, i mean it.
I dun even wana bother :(

Actually going for movies tonight but i have much more important stuffs to handle today.
So, hopefully clubbing tmr can goes smoothly ~

--第142天，没有DSXY的日子。
You're my love (:

2009-12-10T16:30:00.002+08:00

Shersher's back to update (:
Bloody said my blog is rotting to death so perhaps i should update ba.
Im kinda lazy to update "/ LOL!

I cant really recalled where did i go during Monday and Tuesday. LOL!

09'December.
Turf club last minute canceled after i prepared everything.
Then, till i changed back to my pjms, Blood called and ask me get ready. Wtf !
Walk-ed over to Blood place, then bus-ed down to Kranji together with Blood&her bro plus her girlf and Wuxian.
Then, meetup with Tongchuan.
It was kinda bored as i thought it was live, but again, its NOT!
Ha! Forget it, i stayed to accompanied Tong while Blood&co. went home.
Back to bp and walk-ed over to take a look at 115's 大日子.
Then, slacked at there and back home.
Received Minghong's call, went down and he came over to fetch me.
Fcuk it! He make me almost like a SUPERWOMANNN :D LOL!
His driving tactics is power lar! Scare me till death.
Went over to fetch Deping after that and off we go, Rounding again (:
Went to Timah ; Pool session.
Fcuk it! Th Pool table SUCKS ; Th Pool cue SUCKS !
Then, drove deping home and back to bp and fetched Huiru to work and till morning, im home (:

My throat is killing me, fcuk it!
Hopefully, it get well soon (:
Perhaps, Shersher should cut down on alcohol and good sleep.
If not, i'll be growing old faster than anyone. LOL!

Bloooooddddddyyyy, i update alrd ohh !
You should know your blooddy well, im so lazy :D
Lazier than anyone eh. Ha!
I love you& remember it, i love you!

--第141天，没有DSXY的日子。
You're th one that make me live for everything (:
I'll wait, i promise !

2009-12-06T18:16:00.001+08:00

Shersher's back to update :D
Actually there's alot of photos but im kinda lazy to edit all so jus upload abit (:

05'December.
Yesterday was my Bro's wedding.
Kinda enjoy but due to my lack of sleep, so i was so steam :(
Early morning, prepare and walk-ed over to my Grand's place.
Th tea session time then rest awhile till afternoon,
prepared and changed, then cabb-ed over to Jurong Point together with Mum.
Get my hairdo done and wait for everyone to arrived (:
Drink kinda lots but got no appetite to eat at all.
Aunt drove me home, as my leg was freaking pain due to th new shoes :( F*
Then, went back home, put my things and cabb-ed down to Beer House.
Meetup with Janice, Andy, Yaolong.
They were there long ago together with Xiaolong and his girlf and also Shanji.
Drink and relac.
Till closing, then problems cropped up.
Fight, fight, fight !
Super scary and i was busy stopping Andy and Shanji.
Woahs, till police came and lucky none of them got caught (:
Then, walk-ed back home together with Yaolong as Janice accompanied Andy cabb-ed back home.
And, home sweet home.
Super drunk !

Woahs, next weekend shall hit club.
Either to Rebel or somewhere else :D

Bloody, i miss you too :D
Although its jus one sentence from her, but so touching alrd lor !
Haas, see you soon !

--第137天，没有DSXY的日子。
Its you, who make my life filled up with different feelings.
I love you, and thats all i can say (:

2009-12-03T22:42:00.000+08:00

Shersher's back to update (:

Wakeup and intend not to go out today as im having cramps :(
But, went out again.
Received Tongchuan's call.
Prepared and walk-ed over to meet Tongchuan, Blood and her boyf.
Cabb-ed over to Bpp.
Walk walk, then cabb-ed down to Lot1.
Okay, they were having no limits games and stuffs !
Feeling is great but, we still mus have limits for it.
Cabb-ed back to Blood's place and home sweet home.

YEA ! Readers, gona congrats me !
I found a job (:
And, im going for interview tmr.
Do pray for me that i'll pass !
Dun asked me where im working and stuffs.
I wont declare (:

Recently, there are so many Kpo's around us.
Even in my blog?! LOL!
Simply cant stand it lar.
Called and asked where we are, wan to know wad are we doing out there.
And, acted as they dun even bother tapi being sucha Kpo!
To those Kpo's ; Dun keep on spy spy, no good !
And, you guys are making my toes laughing ! HAHA!
Childish acts and lame shits. Dun spy till blog lar.
Do things also so obvious? Think you guys have to buck up and learn to be much more creative in creating spys and kpo's ! Ha !
Dun step paham lar. COWARD !
Whoever terase is siapa problem. LOL!

--第134天，没有DSXY的日子。
Received your another letter (:
Im sorry for those hurtful words. I love you !